This ones about drugs.
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Seriously, when I meet people I don't want a temporary emotion. Yet, that's all I feel. Don't trust em. How can I trust them? I don't even trust me. When I meet a new body, I don't want a temporary feeling. Instead, I want to feel their entire life. Everybody had a story. Usually, of course, there always fucked up stories. But, a niggas story can change your story forever. I want to see someone else's pain, because pain changes people that most. I can't say I think as others. Then again, perhaps I think the same. I'm no mind reader. Okay .
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Drug abuse is an interesting topic it's... to have an addiction... it's all mental. Weed is an addictive substance. "Addictive nature". To put another way, you smoke and become affected by it, hence your mind set will forever change. The way you presume that drug will be different. You may have thought, for example, weed is going to have me acting crazy it's going to make me lazy so i'll stay away but once you've actually tried it perhaps you'll think "it ain't that bad". See, if you smoke and are affected in a bad way, you'd never smoke again. Contrarily, if the experience is opposite of that. The trip is engaging. You see unicorns and shit. Of course, you never do but just say you where high and had fun. You go from sad or assuming your sad, to euphoric. Obviously, wouldn't you smoke again? Addictive nature. Understand there is addictive then there is addictive nature. Animal and material things can be addictive.
I don't even know what my point is anymore. Actually, I don't believe I ever knew. Truly, that is beautiful. To have no exact goal, no point. Yet, stumble across something perfect, something mind opening. To have an open mind is beautiful and yes it can lead to horrible beauty. Anyway, what causes an open mind? A naturally opened mind. Is it education? Well, yes. How about trauma or chaos? Yes and yes. Although, trauma, chaos, education are all related. Things I forced myself to forget. Everything I couldn't understand. Everything that hurt. I push pain and shit out and now I see that hurt causes growth. Yeah, it grows like a tumor.
What am i even talking about? So many year of school. Being taught to color everything in the lines. Once I'm given the freedom to expand it's like WOAH. What do I do now? Do I have to use correct grammar? I know the blue eyes devil taught us how to be "perfect" so that we can have the option of knowledge or ignorance. The option of perfection or living in the gutter. People actually live in the gutter. I'm not sure where, but somewhere. Study the mind, prick.
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PertualanganThis "book" is the things from my journal. Don't always think so deeply into the words I've documented. On the other hand, sometime you may need to probe, or examine what I say in a more detailed way. That depends on what it means to YOU. How import...
