Missing you comes in waves. I no longer see them in little fits during my daily activities. it's a constant feeling of longing and my heart aches in your direction. the longer I go without seeing or talking to you the more I wonder if all of this is real. if you're real. if our whatever it was, was or is real. you are the only person that has been able to calm my storms of anxiety with only your presence. You've helped me so much without any realization of the fact and I can't help but feel indebted. if you wouldn't have crashed into my life so unexpectedly, I don't know where I'd be. my love for you and all that you are resonates deep within my being. you're like a home that I never realized I had been looking for, but needed. every night I pray for your health, your happiness, your safety. if something would ever happen to you, I don't know if I'd be able to handle it. you are everything I never realized I needed to stay steady, and now that you're away, my steps are wary and the ground beneath me is slowly shaking. for you to be completely gone is something like a nightmare to me. I sit in anticipation, waiting for something to show me you care about me as much as I care about you. but that never happens. nothing ever comes. and that fact sits in the pit of my stomach, knowingly. but I still sit here, urging you to be safe, to be healthy, to be happy. and it's hard for me to do that for myself now.
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letters to the one who broke me
Poetryheartbreak is different for everyone. this will follow my journey through the eyes of unrequited love that may have not been so unrequited at one point, and how I've grown through the broken pieces of myself.
