Repeating Cinderella

AUTHORS NOTE

hey guys! so I know I haven't been on lately, and honestly, I've been having the worst writers block like, ever. I have four brief writes due by march 5th, and I have a TON of homework to do. I'm super swamped, and I might just stop for a while., I don't know. but I just want you guys to know <even though only like 5 of you will see this> that I still care, and that I'll try to be on a bit more. sorry if you thought this was an update!! my family is just so crazy right now, and nobody is ever home, so I'm having to grow up and take care of everything faster than I, personally would like. my dad's in the military, he's missed soo many if my birthdays, and he's currently on leave right now, and my mom is always at school, or at the vets office. I have to do everything at once, and it's driving me absolutely bonkers. I have school, and swim team, and a boyfriend that I have to keep up with, and right now, the only support I have is from my boyfriend and my fish that doesn't like to swim. I can't think of anything that could keep the story line going, and I'm trying to think of what John green would do, without giving you a character and making you attached to them, and then killing them. so I don't know. maybe I'll just start giving you book recommendations and tips and update every once in awhile. my mum is driving me absolutely bonkers when she talks because basically all she ever does is criticize everything I do, and I'm trying not to snap but my last string is wearing thin. and I'm afraid of what will happen when it finally snaps. my life is just moving so fast right now, that I'm literally one step away from taking a step back and letting it all go. I'm not into self harm and emo stuff, but I just don't know what to do. and Im not looking for reassurance here. I hate it when people pity me. because some people have it so much worse, yet nobody reassures them. I'm just here because I'm explaining why I'm gone. and I think I might just stop altogether. give away my Instagram acc. erase everything and step back. but then I think of my family. of everything. how all of it drives me bonkers, but how it would affect everything/everybody else. I might delete this update later, because who wants a sob story? not me for sure. but guys, I had to get that out, no matter how stupid it seems or what. and I don't care. I just don't care anymore. so if you want to be my mom and criticize me, go ahead. if you want to pity me, I will say nothing. so go ahead, do what you want, because I won't care.

I'm sorry. but I think I might just step back, and let everything pass me by.

love you all😘