I don't have a low opinion about you. It's just really me. Maybe because I am so used to be left alone. Maybe because I don't want people to prioritize me because I don't experience those and I am so used in prioritizing special people in my life and don't receive equal adoration. It's not you. It's me. I'm sorry. I've been like this for a long time. I am that stupid person who becomes satisfied in small things and so contented in what people can only offer. Cause it's okay. It's okay for me to be left out, to be treated not the best. I'm used to it. I'm not saying this to you because I think of you lowly I just don't really feel valuable in the eyes of people most of the time. And I don't also mean that you are included in those people. I am just really so used to it, in those kind of pain. So used to be used. Sometimes I feel like there is really no one to treat and value me the same like I do. Sometimes I think so low about myself. Sometimes I have this inner insecurities that creeps through me. I'm sorry. I really apologize.
