On the bus ride, I found out where he lived. Now I know where to go to if I wanna hang out with him. Our parents pick us up from the bus and he is gone. I have to wait until Monday too see him. I finally get to leave the bus. I see him with his grandmother backing his bags in the trunk. He is so fucking cute. I get home and get my phone. I am so happy to get finally use my phone and of course, I go to text Jake. I really wanted to be near him and I asked him if he wanted to hang out. He said he was busy, so now I just want to kill myself. I go to text one of by best friends. I knew her since 1st grade. I told her about our connection and she supports every decision I make and that's why she is my friend. I wanna tell Jake how I feel but at the same time I don't. I don't wanna it to be so awkward, but I just can't hold in all these feelings. I accidentally hit send when I typed in "I need to talk to you!" Then I said nevermind. I don't wanna be a jerk to him and then just texted "If you really wanna know, tell me. I won't be that type of person!" It's now Sunday afternoon and he texts me he really wants to know. I said okay. This is close to what I told him. I don't have a good ass memory but I gave him like a shit ton of words. "Just promise me 3 things, Jake. 1. You won't expose me for this. 2. We can keep atleast out friendship. And 3. Everything doesn't have to be so awkward.!"
"Okay" he replies
"Jake, this field trip... You made me realize I'm Bi. You are my male crush. I'm not gay, but bi. I have feelings for a girl too. And my feelings for you are almost as strong as mine to hers. The way how we acted. The way he we kept smiling and blushing. When we slept together. Partners whenever we could. Held hands while sleeping. Cuddled. You 'hit me from the back' (For the dumbasses out there, 'Hit it from the back' means to put it up there ass from behind!). And we had such a strong bond and connection. I know I seemed clingy and so fucking annoying but that's how I am. I wanted to be close to you and that's why I acted like that. I have feelings for you, Jake. And I hope you do or atleast consider me a friend."
"Wow," he says "I didnt expect this from you, but in straight! I won't tell anyone though and we can stay friends!"
I was happy that we could stay friends but I still don't believe that he is straight.
