I am sitting here now
Exactly where my day had started
Where I saw the first light of my day
Also where I end my day
I wished-no I had hoped
That today would be different
You know, it's not the first time
But life never ceases to disappoint me
So here I am, sitting on my bed
Considering never waking up from my slumber
And rid me of the problems of mine
Again this is not the first time
I always think everyone is better off without me
Maybe they are, maybe not
I could make everything worse
Just like I do always
This feeling, the urge to end it all
It lures me in like a siren's call
More closer and closer every time
If you're reading this, you should know
It was never you, it's all me
I made this choice for myself
One more thing to add to my endless list of wrong choices
I do not believe in happily ever after
Hell, I don't even believe in love
Or maybe I do, and I'm just not capable of that feeling
But there is one thing that I believe in
My one day-the day of true happiness
I just hope that I find it soon
Before I steer my ship into the rocks
And hit rock bottom.....
