Just Another Depressing soul

Don't kill yourself

our parents blame the drug, alcohol and tobacco but they should be blaming them selfs for making you turn to that. they never notice when you cry cut or wish to die they see failed grades messy rooms and not trying hard enough they see that your teachers think you can do better they punish you for the stupid thing like not doing the dishes but they will leave you alone when you cry they dont ask why you wear jumpers in the middle of summer but yell at you cause you will over heat and are making more clothes dirty they dont realize when you are quite and just want to be left alone instead they make you socialize with the family, they dont realizes when you go to bed later and wake up with the tears from the night before stain you pillow and cheeks. it makes you feel like you dont really matter like they couldnt give a FUCK like youre worthless and fat and youre not wanted so the next time you cut you cut a bit more a bit deeper you watch the blood run down youre arm but you just want the pain to stop then you cut some more until you cant breath the you just stop..

You wake up hours later the blood dried on your skin, your wrist aches from the cuts you made hours before. You start to regret it, you broke your promise to you best friend, you brother or sister, to your boyfriend all these people who think you dont give a fuck about you but they do. You don't want to tell them not this time because this time meant the most it was the last time before you decided to end it. You havent decided how your going to do it yet pills? Blade? Rope? Gun? Jump of a bridge? Maybe just drown? But wait take a moment to think about how your mum will feel... Your dad? Your brothers? Your sisters? Your friends? Your teachers? Your class mates? Just take a moment and imagine how your principal will tell your school at assembly the next day, how everything seems quieter than before how you would talk back to the teacher, how you would get sent out for laughing too loud, how your best friend now cuts everynight because she didn't notice you were sad how your friends will drink themselves in to depression because you aren't there, your not there to help them with relationship dramas, family problems or just anything you used to. The person you loved cries them self to sleep cause all they can think about is talking to you the day you decided to leave. How they couldnt see past the fake smile you put on they feel like they failed to look after you. Now think about you brothers and sisters how you fight with them over the smallest things, your brothers feel like shit cause they were meant to look after you, your sisters dont have anyone to talk to when there friends are being bitches or how quite the room is in the morning cause your not complaining about it being too early
Now put down what ever you were using to hurt your self and look in the mirror you are beautiful and most of all you are worth it don't let anyone tell you otherwise. you will always be worth it don't ever let anyone tell you other wise