Mystic Messenger: Last night with you (ZenXMc fanfiction)

Chapter 18: Think it over

The shooting ended at last, after what feels like an eternity. Zen, who was beyond exhausted made his way to your shared room where he expects to see you sleeping soundly, getting the rest you needed.

He's been distance of you all day and it was a torture for him but he needed to do it, he felt quite terrible about having to rely on you all the time, he felt worst when he saw just how exhausted you are sleeping underneath the tree, so tired that you didn't even flinch or even open your eyes when he carried you back. That was dangerous. "You should take care of yourself more and worry less about him," he thought. So when you excused yourself earlier to rest he felt quite happy, relieved to finally see you care about your own well-being.

To his surprise, you weren't in bed when he arrived. His first thought was that maybe you had gone into the bathroom; he called out your name hoping to hear your sweet voice. He waited in vain.

You were nowhere in sight.

Panic began to sink in but he was still rational. Maybe you just went out for a walk or something. He calmly walks over the bed and saw a note on the bedside table.

The note read as:
"Hi Zen,

I'm sorry I left without saying a word but I really need to go back home, my parents are waiting for me.

Good luck on the shooting. Don't be too hard on yourself

Sara"

Zen ran as fast as he could to the parking lot hoping to catch you, hoping that you just hopped on Seven's car and was only about to start the engine but he was 3 hours late. You were already at home by the time Zen read the letter you left him. He reaches for his phone hoping that to get some answer from you but you didn't answer him. He texted you frantically, but even those messages were ignored.

Cleaning the whole house was your agenda. You needed to distract yourself.

It was already 10 pm by the time you finish cleaning the house. Your stomach growled from the lack of food, after all, it's way past dinner time.

The convenient store seems like a good place to find to food since your already too exhausted to cook on your own. "Take out once in a while should not be bad" You mentally noted.

With a little fresh air and a bag of food, you're definitely glad that your day ended way better than it had started.

"Zen!?" You exclaimed as you saw the young actor standing in front of the porch of your house. The young actor upon hearing your voice turned around. His face lights up when he lays his eyes on you. Finally, he was able to catch up to you.

"Sara..." he smiled, relieved to see you. "God! I wouldn't know where to look if you weren't here"

"What are you doing here, Zen?" you stuttered to ask.

Zen almost jump to you, pulling you into a hug as he explains that he was there hoping to find you. He was worried sick when you left him leaving only a small note and nothing else.

"We should take this inside Zen, We shouldn't disturb the neighbors" You break away from his embrace and lead him inside.

The moment you stepped inside Zen rushes in again to embrace you. "You had me so worried" He gently caresses your cheeks and makes you look into his gaze. "Did I do something wrong? Why did you just leave?" He asked so innocently, unaware of the pain he has caused you.

God! Sometimes it can be very frustrating to love Zen. Where you just over reacting to his actions earlier? That can't be, right? You freaking tried talking to him and you were close enough, loud enough for him to hear. So why was he acting as if he was the victim? Does he really like playing that role?

Once again you break from his grasp. "Sara?" The young actor was confused as to why you were being so distant. 

"Zen" You started. A swirl of things has gone through your mind all day and out of all those things, one thing stood out. The two of you should have known that this is where it was heading. It was probably for the best. Probably. "I think we should break up, formally"

"What?" The actor was clearly surprised. Sure, the two of you don't even know what to call yourselves right now but why now? Why now of all time? Why when he was just starting to... Wait what was he starting to realize? Is it just him that felt that way? That maybe just maybe the two of you could start over again? Could it be that he was misled by your kindness?

 "I'm saying we should break up" You repeated standing firm on your decision. This was for the best. This is the best thing you could leave him. Fate was never on your side anyway. 

"Sara" Zen reached to hold your hand. To get you to stay in his arms but you brush it away. "Did I do something wrong? Did I hurt you again? If I did just tell me" His voice cracking. This was beyond painful for him. "If I did something please tell me I can make it work for you, for us..." He trailed off.  Us? The word "us" rang over and over again in Zen's head. 

"Us?" You asked. "Zen, Why are you here? Why did you follow me here?"

"I.." He scrambled to find the right words. There were so many reasons, first he wanted to know if he did something wrong then he just wanted to be sure that you're safe then he just wanted to see you... God damn it! Why! Why did he want to see you?

"What am I to you, Zen?"

Tears have now fallen from your eyes and Zen as gentle as he will ever be put his hands in your face to brush them off. "Hey, it is not your fault" He whispered "I was at fault, I ruined our life, your life"

"That's not what I'm asking Zen. That's not what I want to know" You manage to say as you sob. You removed Zen's hand from your face as you turn you back against him.

"I'll go prepare your room"

"Sara.."

"I meant what I just said Zen. Please, think it over"

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Hi guys! 

Hope you like this week's update :) I'm pretty sure that all of you are kinda gonna want to stab me but I firmly believe that this is how things should go down between the two of them. Lol. So yeah. Keep Safe! and Enjoy! :) See yah.. oh yeah feel free to leave a comment on how you feel about this chapter :D THANKS!