happiness-the state of being happy.
that's not what i have :,)
Sadness-the condition or quality of being sad
there it is.
i don't even know what to do anymore, i guess the only reason i was such a happy fluffball was because of Lil, she's always been there for me, she went threw so much and, she just stayed strong the whole entire time, everything went downhill, went badly really fast and badly for her now.
she just finally snapped.....
"Death changes everything! time changes nothing......i still miss the sound of your voice, the wisdom in your advice, the stories of your life and just being in your presence. so no, time changes nothing, i miss you as much today as i did the day you died. i just miss you!"
"i look up to the sky and talk to you. what i wouldn't give to hear you talk back. i miss your voice, i miss your laughter, i miss everything about you."
"here is one of the worst things about having someone you love die: it happens again every single morning"
"i am very sad because i just lost my best friend in the world"
"i miss you. not in some cheesy, let's hold hands and be together forever kind of way. i just miss you. plain and simple. i miss your presence in my life. i miss you always being there for me. i miss my best friend"
sorry for those....
i'm just really upset about losing my favorite person in the world.
my letter to Lil:
Lil, you were the most precious person i ever met. i still remember that day we first met, you barley knew English and kept giving kids weird looks, i decided to talk to you and you got scared and wanted to run. i knew right away stuff happened in your life, i told you not worry and you believed me.
we became best friends after a few years, we never spit up, you finally knew English but spoke Korean just to annoy me, i miss those times, i remember when you started liking Zach, i would tease you whenever we were around him and you would just get so embarrassed and tell him i was joking.
the day he asked you out was the most wonderful day ever to you, you kept saying meeting me was the best day to you, even Zach told me, i can't believe it though, but meeting you was the best day ever to me. i also remember when you kept screaming and fangirling over BTS, SHINEe and EXO, that was day you showed me kpop, it became our instant happiness, every happy memory we had we always listened to kpop...now i'm not even sure if i listen to kpop without breaking down bawling.
even though you went threw so much you managed to smile and crack a joke or more, just know i love you so much and you will always be my most favorite person, best friend and sister ever.
love you Lil <3
