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Wednesday 26 April

Hi, I just wanted a place to talk about my feelings as I can't tell anyone. I don't trust anyone .
Plus I don't want to ruin someone's day with my problems .
I'm 17 years old and im in year 12. I started school in September and this new girl came to our school. She is someone that is related to a girl in my year. Both are cousins . My family and theirs are really close . So naturally we hit it of well .

I've known her for 8 months now and during those 8 months she has said such horrible things about my friends behind their backs to me. Yesterday , I couldn't take it. So she started of talking about one of my friends while my other friend was also sitting next to me
I'll give names
Girl A is my friend who is sitting on the computer in the same room doing her work
Girl B is also my best friend since year 7 and she is sitting with me

Girl B and me speak another language and girl C and girl D are first cousins and im their family friend. So we all speak in our first language .

And she is talking about my friend girl A . Girl D is quiet throughout this whole thing . Girl C won't stop talking .

I just snapped . Telling her not to talk about my friend like that infront of me .
Then looked back at my phone. I looked at girl C to see her reaction and she seemed shocked.
During these 8 months I've stayed quiet around her . In the beginning I am very quiet and like to observe people around me .

For example, in secondary school people in year 7 start of with big groups and as they make it to year 11 or 12 those friendship groups are reduced to 2 or 3 .
With me i watched from afar Girl A and Girl B .

And yes I know that sounds stalkerish.

But geuss what this benefitted me.
We have now been friend for 6 to 7 years. I pick my friends right and I am right.

Back to what happened .

After I looked at he reaction and went back to my phone .
She a few minutes later went to the canteen with her cousin . Girl D. When they left i asked my best friend girl B if i said it in a wrong way when I stuck up for my friend .

She was reassuring me and telling me no and that I did the right thing . We started talking about her . But I promise no bad things my friend girl B said that I feel like girl C does not like me .
And I went to her honestly that yeah she doesn't my friend girl A who was near the computer heard and came over asking what we was talking about and we told her .

She went to us that she feels like girl C doesn't like her too and I told her the truth .

I'm going to fast forward anyway so girl C had a go at me saying we said bad stuff behind her back this was on teusday. I apologised later that day.

Today is Wednesday.
I saw her in school today and smiled because I thought she would of calmed down and we can get over this. I mean it was a small argument . No she doesn't smile, talk or approach me .

But there is one thing I find funny . She thinks I said something bad about her right ? (No we didn't we literally said yh I don't think she likes us but she's a nice girl .) So she's not talking to me . However all the people that she knows that talk behind her back she's still talking and laughing of with them .

If anyone does read this . Can u please tell me if im in the wrong ? Should I always feel guilty . I mean I apologised and im staying out her way. Did I do the wrong thing ? Was this worth me crying to sleep over .

I know this is probably really confusing to read and im sorry my mind is everywhere at the moment .