Paranoia

Hylia

Kai

I knock at Hazels door a half hour before our first lesson. She doesn't open. She's probably sleeping. I try knocking again and this time I only have to wait a couple of minutes before she opens her door, with her hair all messy and big tired rings under her eyes. We just stand there looking at each other. Me with my arms crossed and she barley being able to stand up properly. I just sigh at her.
" Rough night? " I raise my eyebrows as she can barley lift her eyes to look at me, scratching her messed up hair and just slightly shaking her head in the thought of the night's events.
Even though I stayed by her side till she fell asleep, I am much aware of her awakening in the nights, sometimes sleepwalking, sometimes just having bad dreams, or illusions. She feels safe in her room, but just the thought of her demons lurking outside her door can keep her up.
" Yeah, pretty rough huh? My head still hurts "
For that I actually feel a little sorry for her, I'm pretty sure she hit it for real, and that it wasn't just her imagination. Sometimes it's hard even for me to tell the difference.
" It was bad. And it will get worse if you don't get to class in time " I say as I look at my watch.
" you have about 15 minutes before we REALLY need to hurry " Hazel looks down at her clothes, probably considering going in her PJ's, but then in the slowest way possible she turns around into her room, letting me close the door so that she doesn't expose herself to everyone walking past us.
I swear to god 10 minutes later when she finally comes out again, the only thing she has done is to change from PJ, into sweatpants and a too big t-shirt.
This day is going to be long.

During lunch, after what feels like ages of trying to keep Hazel awake, I basically have to feed her with my own hands. This could be really sweet like one of those really cringy couples you only see on TV. Unfortunately it's more like a parent feeding a special child.
While in the middle of a bite, Hazel freezes. Her before so slack body goes super stiff and tense as she discreetly starts looking around.
Oh no, she's hearing something.

She is so beautiful, her dark brown hair up in a messy bun, no makeup nor fancy clothes, just her. With her blue eyes always making sure nothing is following her, and her slim body. I'm scared that if I wasn't here to feed her she would accidentally starve herself, because she just has other things on her mind.

I snap my fingers in front of her face and with a twitch she looks back at me. I don't have to ask, just give her a questioning look. Half distracted looking by her sides again she replies

" I think Hylia is here .. I can hear her.. She's... She's calling for me "
From what Hazel has told me, Hylia is revealed in people's reflections. It's her passage from the other world. Or her other world, Hazel's other world. In which she thinks all evil is stored. That's from where all her 'Creations' come from. Hylia has before tried to talk Hazel into killing herself, and she would've succeeded if I hadn't accidentally been there. As always I seem to end up where Hazel is. Maybe it's a coincidence, or maybe I'm just scared that she will hurt herself and so I'm constantly looking for her. Neither of which she's lucky to have me here, though I'm not sure if she knows that.

Suddenly out of nowhere Hazel stands up, causing her chair to fall to the ground and her food almost spilling out. Everyone turns their heads and looks at us, almost disgusted by the scene she's causing. Hazel doesn't care about them, she leans over the table towards me and fails whispering to me.

" We have to get out of here! It's not safe.. " And so she grabs my arm and in a rush drags me with her. People start giggling as I stumble over her fallen chair and almost myself fall to the ground. I'm pretty sure that if I had fallen Hazel wouldn't stop, she would just keep dragging me over the floors.

Hazel covers her face by every window or mirror we pass, scared that Hylia will get a grip over her, speak her into doing terrible things. One time she set fire to a curtain in a classroom. Luckliy I was there, as usual, and could put it out before anything else took fire. The teacher was furious and wanted to expell her, but I guess her parents payed the school to let her stay. I'm a bit envious of that, but also happy that she got to stay. I could only imagine what would happen if she moved somewhere else.

As we're running through the crowded hallways echoing with laughter and people talking I see how Hazel is starting to panic. Her head is everywhere looking for somewhere to go, but  there are windows on both sides of us and the only way out is through two glass doors by the end of the hallway. She tries getting towards it, but it seems like she's struggling. Almost as if she sees more people than there actually is. Then she starts backing towards me with her eyes wide open, constantly shaking her head as to tell someone not to come any closer.

She has to stop this, I have to get her back to reality. But how? I grab her shoulder and turn her so that her face is towards me. I place my hands around her so that her sight cannot escape me, pulling her closer to me.

" Hazel, it's ok. It's only me. I'm the only one here " This doesn't calm her. She's trying to get out of my hold, clawing with her nails over my arms, but I'm not letting go of her. I can't lose her. In her last attempt to get free she tries puttin her hands onto my chest and push away from me. I let go of her face and last second before she turns around I grab both of her arms and pull her into me, letting our lips touch.

My imaginations of our first kiss were not like this. I had imagined a dark room, only me and her, calm and sensual. Both of us leaning in towards each other. Maybe she would stroke her fingers through my hair and my hands would be on her waist. Instead I have to force her lips against mine, halfway though one of her screams. For a second she tries to fight back, but then she seems to relax. Not continuing my made up fantasies about our first kiss, but neither does she back away.

Slowly I open my eyes, letting our lips slip apart and discreetly look around. People look a little scared, and annoyed. They are almost getting used to Hazel's outbursts. I stare a little at people who are still looking at us, until they get back to what they were doing before, then I look back at Hazel. Her blue eyes digging so intensly into mine that I get embarrassed. I have no idea what to say. This might be our first awkward silence. Lucky me she takes a deep breath and close her eyes, letting her forehead rest against mine.

" It's over now.. " I whisper in attempt to mke her relax, but she only backs away looking very stangely at me.

" Don't you see? This will never end "