promises

apologies

im sorry for being who
i am

im sorry for trying to
fit in

im sorry for being
your friend

im sorry you had to
know someone
like me.

you could have just told me
how you felt,
you know.

but you just had to keep it in.
so everyone would know
but
me.

i cried every night.

i thought about us laughing
just enjoying ourselves
being
us.

but no.
you had to leave.
where my heart could
never
ever
see you
again.

i was hurt.
i pretended i was okay.

how would you have reacted if i cried?

exactly.

and you still ask me
why i never told you anything.

i was strong.
stronger than our love.
our friendship.

well, those things clearly dont matter anymore.

so
im sorry.