Problems

Self Harm

Self harm

People wonder why we do it.
So I'm going to tell you why I do it.

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I do it to forget the sadness and anger towards someone or myself.

I cut because of the pain.

I don't know why but what I do know is its because of the pain.

It's like forgetting the sadness or anger and change it to pain.

We focus more on the stinging pain than the sadness or anger we were feeling.

I know that self harm won't get me anywhere.

They call me freak, stupid, and crazy. And those words made more cuts.

If only they would stop calling me names, I wouldn't cut.

They have no idea that they are the reason why I cut.

They made me feel like shit.

On April 10, 2014, my mother so my scars on my hand. (They are only thin cuts because I don't want to end my life just yet ) I traced my scars with red ink pen and my mother saw it while I handed her purse. She asked me what happened and I told her it was just a pen. It was partially true because it was a pen.

I met a girl in school and she also cuts small thin lines on her hand like mine.

We got to know each other and it turned out that we like the same bands and we could open to each other.

She isn't my best friend but she was my good friend.

We would sing some Pierce The veil songs and talk about Kellin Quinn.

We hung out the whole school year and now we couldn't see each other already.

I regret not asking why she cut. I should have asked her what's the reason behind those scars. What's the stories. But I didn't .

Her first name was Angelu or Angel.

She seems happy but I know that it's sadness behind it.

I know when a person is pretending to be happy for the sake of they're friends.

The saddest thing is to pretend that you're happy for the people not to worry.

They say I do it for attention. They say I'm an attention seeker.

But I'm not. Because if I was an attention seeker, I would be shoving my scars on front of your face and have that look in my face that says 'pity me now'.

I've been there for people in need of help. And I'm not even mad when I get nothing in return.

The world is becoming mad. Soon enough the world will be occupied with heartless people.

Before you judge someone, look at yourself. Are you perfect? No!!

Selena Gomez: Who say your not perfect?
World: Everyone!!

I'm sorry for the Selena fans