Living With Mr. Dallas ↬c.a.d.

0.24 ❀ Unspoken Feelings

♔ Cameron's POV ♔

I huff as I look at my clock, it was currently 7:58 in the morning and I'm still stuck in this darkness, waiting for her to save me because I'm drowning already and I'm waiting for her touch to stop this.

There's always smoke that's blinding me with her last words and her. Then it's when it hit me, this feeling is different and I've staggered so long that it can't go anymore.

But there's always this unspoken feelings that I want to tell her or show her if I suppose.

All I wanna do is hug her and tell her this words that's running through my mind. I just sigh and get a notebook and a pen and wrote down the words I wanna tell her, I know, cheesy right? But I don't know, I feel like writing down all the my unspoken feelings for her is way better that saying it in front of her.

To the girl with a broken smile

Please remember that I miss you,
Young and reckless, what the fuck did I do?
Broken promises that I've broke,
And had gone forever,
But maybe one day we'll get better
Right By your side, that's where I wanna be
In a heart beat that's beating so fast,
Maybe we're meant to be, meant to be strangers
I just wonder if you miss me too

I wanna find you
But I guess I'm the one that's lost,
Lost in this nightmare inside my head
But I'm still right here where you left me, Blake
Please remember that I fucking miss you,
Not caring is too hard to do
Everything that we love together
It's not the same without you there
Feels like you were just beside me
How did time go by so quickly?
Now we're strangers but I miss you
Oh, I wonder if you miss me too

Please remember, don't forget me
I'll be leaving this heart empty
Burn our bridges, are you still there?
All these endless circles do nothing
And I don't know why I can't just let you go
Ever since this started aching
Now we're strangers but I need you
Oh, I wonder if you need me too

But lastly, I just wanna say I still love you Blake, and I will never stop loving you

-the broken heartbreaker

I took a deep breath, closing the notebook I have on hand and looking up on the ceiling

Why can't I move on?

I groan, I know I'm the one who's been the villain on our story, but I really do love her so much, I wish I can still be her Peter Pan, even though for her I'm nothing but her past now, I want to go back time, when we were just cuddling on her bed, watching Once Upon A Time. I wish I had her back beside me, I wish I didn't hurt her.

"I wish she still loves me."

❀ Blake's POV ❀

"Sophieeeeeeeee." I whine as I look up to her, she just sigh and asked me,"what now?"

"I'm freaking boreeed." I said as I slide through the couch

She just stood up and go to her room but get back to the living room with a notebook and a pen,"here." She said giving me the notebook and the pen,"go write something so you won't get bored." She said as she goes back on her phone

I grin,"Thank you Sophie!" I said as I run to the guest room, well my room now. I shut the close and locked it, not wanting any distractions while I write.

I took a deep breath and decided that I will just write a poem about what I'm feeling

To the player that I love,

All of the words that left my mouth, it doesn't mean a thing no more
The illusion and the love, are already gone
And now, I'm promising that I won't fall in love again

You told me, I'm the only one the you love,
Or is it only for your game?
Am I just a toy to you?
That you'll throw away after you're bored?

You're so good at playing with hearts,
And All of the girls you played,
Do you know what they really feel?

You're so good at pretending,
That even I, the smartest kid, even fell for your trap.
I really hated myself right now,
Too dumb for being too careless and reckless.

I wanna cry,
But even the tears won't fall down anymore,

If I ever see you again, I won't cry anymore
I'll just smile,
Telling you that I've finally moved on.
But not yet.

-the girl you broke

I close my notebook along with my eyes, as I drown to darkness, and my deep breathings are the only thing that's being heard.

"Why am I being so depressed right now?" I asked myself bitterly

"Blake?" I heard a knock upon my door making me sniff and dragging myself to the door to open it for Sophie

I look up to her,"yes?"

She just smiled,"let's go shopping!" She beamed

I laugh,"I'm to lazy to go to the mall."

She then proceed on linking her arms on me and pulling me out of my room,"let's go!"

I just groan and roll my eyes at her,"I don't wanna go to the mall."

She just shoot me a glare and said,"better waste your money than your life, right?"

I laughed,"what the hell?"

"It's a saying from your dearest old friend. So appreciate it."

I just nodded."fine. Let's go to the mall then."

She then jump excitedly,"yay!!!"

I just sign at her childishness,"You know, sometimes I wonder why I'm friends with an idiot like you."

She then slap my arm playfully,"I have an amazing personality which people will definitely adore."

"Whatever. Let's just go, shall we?" I said and she just nodded her head while grinning in joy.