For my Nonexistent Love

I remember...

I look back now
It seemed so long ago
When I was happy
But though the long passage of time did flow
I remember everything so clearly
I remember her , every feature
And every moment I spent with her
Those days seemed so filled with bliss
Those times were truly rapture
And those times are sorely missed

I remember her eyes
The way they never lied
They way they sparkled like gems And now though she's gone, my heart still denies
Sometimes at night, I still think of them

I remember her hair
The way it just wasn't fair
The way when I touched it, it entranced me
Leaving my heart exposed and bare
For everyone to see

I remember her hands, so soft against mine
How when I held them, it seemed to freeze time
The way how when I held them I felt safe
It's almost a crime
The way she can make me swoon and strafe

And I remember the taste of her lips
The way that it made my heart rip
The sweetness and the addiction
Making my mind slip
The toxicity of her affection

I remember her in my arms
The way she made me feel so warm
How I never wished to let her go
The way she brought me so much harm
Only now I can see, only now I know

But through all the madness that she did give
She was the only thing I could love
Though I was dying and suffering
She still made me live
She is my everything