For my Nonexistent Love

So now.. goodbye

I didn't know what it was like to be alone while I had her
But now it seems it's all I got
Life's so much harder
Why am I so lost

I have to hold on, a little voice says
Why bother common sense replies
Just let her go, it's so obvious
Yet without her a little bit of me dies

I don't blame myself for loving, it's human
But I blame myself for everything else
I blame myself for letting her leave me, for letting her run
I blame myself for putting myself in hell

I still try to speak to her, but she shuts me out
She's left me behind as she finds somewhere, someone better
And no matter how much I scream and shout
She leaves me to suffer in this world that just grows darker

Never more, never again , I don't need this pain
But no matter how much I want to run away
It may sound insane
But through everything, I still want her to stay