Honestly I don't know where to start. My boyfriend's friend tried to kill him self again a few days ago and for the past two or three days he's been avoiding me. He said his emotions are everywhere and he doesn't want to take it out on me. He said that he's lost a friend to suicide once and he's terrified for it to happen again and I don't know how it feels. I begged him to let me be there but he won't let me. The scars on my thighs just keep collecting but I can't ask him to help me; he has enough on his plate. I hate this feeling. I want my loving boyfriend back. I understand he needs time though. All I can do is be here when he's ready
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AléatoireJust a little diary. Not really meant to be read but it makes me feel better to write how I feel and put it out there.
