pretty dancer | jimin

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{p.jimin's point of view}

My brain stopped working when our lips touch. I feel every tremor inside me exploded. My ego, my feelings was thrown away, and here's me, the real me, in front of a girl that I met just a few days ago. And the worst part of this story is, I freaking kissed her. I, Park Jimin just kissed a girl that was supposed to be nobody in my life. I pulled away and she had her eyes widened, her hands shaky as she grabs the duvet in her hand. "Please, just forget that this happened," I said to her softly. Her eyes blinking in unexplained words as I sit on the chair next to the bed. She didn't say anything, nor did myself so I choose this opportunity to sing her a song from Yuna.

Like lullabies you are,
Forever in my mind.
I see you in all,
The pieces in my life.
Though you weren't mine,
You were my first love.

I wanted to go away with you,
And I will leave all my troubles here.
I wanted to run away with you,
And I will bring all my dreams and fears.

Like lullabies you are,
Forever in my mind.
I see you in all,
The pieces in my life.
Though you weren't mine...
Like lullabies you are,
Forever in my mind.
I see you in all,
The pieces in my life.
Though you weren't mine

I know she didn't understand what I mean, and I don't want her to understand. I want her to know by herself because I know how broken she will be if she knows what our life has become. I continue to sing, ignoring her stare, ignoring how painful my heart seems to feel now. I wish we didn't cross this path before, I wish we didn't meet, not even in the past and not even now.

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{l.june's point of view}

I watch silently when he just smiles and plays with the strands of my hair. He looks so different, unlike himself. He just looks like a normal teenage guy in his high school days, a guy that likes to smile and always had this soft-looking eyes. He looks like a normal guy that was named Park Jimin who was born by normal parents that live in a normal neighborhood. I was about to say something when he put his finger on my lips. "I don't want you to ask me anything or even talk to me. I know this is weird, but I hope you never question about this anymore, tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. This will be our secret. "

I looked into his eyes and I was surprised to see a single roll of tears, I wipe it off and he was surprised too. His eyes widened when he realize that he just let out a single tear. "I can't stay here until you fall asleep. I need to go."

I want him to go but at the same time, I don't want to. I want this type of him to stay a little longer.

He let my hand go, and he walks to the door, but before he walks out, he looks behind him, he looks at me for the last time that night, for the last time I saw his soft eyes, and for the first time, I know, that I need to do something. I need to find more information about him.

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{p.jimin's point of view}

I stumble on my way to my room, it's at the far end and I'm just at the first step of the north wing. I feel like my inside will exploded, and my breath caught in my throat. I feel the itchiness and all the sounds around me reverberated inside my head like an alarm. I quickly held the wall with all the strength that was left inside me. I can't feel anything now not even breath.

I just hope someone passed this hallway. I just hope mom or the maid that I trusted realized that I have trouble to breathe now and I need help. Eventually, before anyone could reach me in this hallway, I had passed out.