The words I Never Got to say - OikawaxM!Reader DISCONTINUED!

A Big Chapter 1 (edited)

I just decided to put chapter 1 and 2 together :YY

(Y/N) was Oikawa's boyfriend, well secret boyfriend to be exact, their relationship was not known to the school, even to their closest friends, They were afraid to let everyone know, well Oikawa exactly, (Y/N) didn't like the idea of hiding their relationship, he's tried to convince his lover that everyone would be okay with it, but Oikawa never seemed to listen, (Y/N) always said "I Love you" to Oikawa, but he never says it back, which caused (Y/N) to go into a depression, he began cutting , but Oikawa never noticed....

but what happens when it's The Last Straw for (Y/N)? will Oikawa be to late? or will he save his Lover just in time?

(A Little Sneek peak?? Idek well let's get started on the story!!)

You were on your way to school, smiling like always, because You get to see your boyfriend, well, you were on the volley ball team just like he was, you loved Oikawa, but you weren't sure if he loved you back, the thought of it, made your smile fade, you walked slowly to the gym where they held the volley ball team practices, you walked through the gym doors and you could here the the ball being hit and the screeches of shoes hitting the ground, as soon as you entered, you put on your regular fake smile, but you stopped where you were about to enter, because you seen Oikawa, talking to a girl, you could hear their conversation just perfectly...

"So Oikawa wanna go out some time?"

"Yeah, sure, that'd be great!" he exclaimed.

"How about this friday at that new restaurant in town?" she asked looking at you smirking, The girl handed Oikawa a piece of paper, which you assumed to be her address and phone number, you stayed quiet and acted as if you didn't hear it, you could feel the pain in your chest grow even more,  but you ignored it and made the biggest smile you could and made your way past the two and onto the volley ball court to get ready to play.

Time skip, brought to you by my laziness~ 

You walked out of the gym feeling empty, like nothing, he was going to cheat on you, but you could only do is watch as Oikawa flirted and began going out with girls, not guys, especially                                                                                                    you...

The next morning you woke up, feeling really tired, you had stayed up all night because you had to do homework, you stood up and looked around your room for a paper and pen and began writing..

Dear, Oikawa.. You're probably wondering why your wasting your time reading this note, when you could be with the most slutty and ugly girls in the school, doing stuff with em. Well Oikawa.. I wanna breakup with you, you probably don't even care..

Well if you wanna know why, I'll tell you. You don't tell me you love me, you don't show affection, you don't go on dates with me, we have to pretend to be friends everywhere, you don't notice if I'm having a bad day, you just shake off my problems when i try to talk to you, each second, minute, hour, day, that I spend with you, is slowly killing me....

you know, when i promised to stop cutting when we first met....

I started again, it's not you'll care anyway, I was really close to hitting a vein yesterday, well, oops..

You stopped writing, feeling a warm liquid run down your cheeks and soaking small parts of the note, you squeezed the paper tightly, sighing, you began writing again..

Oikawa, it's getting hard for me each day, putting on a fake smile, pretending to be happy, hiding the fact that I'm hurting inside, I'm slowly starting to get sick of everything...

Love (Y/N)...

You folded the paper and got ready for school..

stuffing the paper into your pocket, you made your way to school, it was a quiet walk until you heard a familiar voice that made your heart break.

"Hey (Y/N)!!"

you kept walking ignoring the brunette, while clenching your fist out of frustration..

"...(Y/N)? what's wrong?"

you turned around before you began to yell at him.

"It's you!" you shouted.

"What do you mean it's me?" he asked starting to look more serious.

"I hate it how we have to pretend to be just friends, when no one else knows we're more than that! I hate it how you don't say you love me! you don't show affection! you don't ask me how my day was, you don't notice my days when I'm down, when I'm clearly showing it!!" after the sudden outburst, you ran, ignoring his calls....

not noticing the note you wrote to him had fallen out of your pocket. you were suddenly were stopped, forcefully turned around, Oikawa looked at you with tears in his eyes, this broke your heart to see him cry, you struggled to get away, he just hugged you tightly begging you to not leave him, you stopped your struggles as you were getting tired, Oikawa didn't let go still sobbed onto your back.

"Oikawa, I won't leave if you explain yourself." you said. Oikawa let you go, still holding your hand, he was still crying, you smiled on how cute he looked, you wiped his tears away.

"I'm sorry, I was just scared of what people thought of us being together, i was scared that you would get hurt by being with me" he sniffled. You immediately regretted what you had said and hugged his torso."I'm So sorry Oikawa!" you said crying. "Don't cry or i will cry" you both laughed. You  made your way to school, holding hands. all the girls stopped and stared, some glared, and most fan girled.

The rest of the day was boring as fuck...