High School Just Got More Interesting (boyxboy)

Chapter 1: His Perverted Confession

        "Guys, come on let’s decide already!” Our class president was getting too excited again. "Guys, come on we need a theme for our production number! It's only 4 weeks away!"

        Being the introvert that I am, I continued reading my book at the back of the class, as my classmates kept rambling on about their ideas. I took out my iPhone and put on my earphones. I scoured through the songs and found The Scientist by Coldplay.

        Nobody said it was easy

        No one ever said it would be this hard

        Oh take me back to the start

        I felt kind of depressed. It was a really great song, but the lyrics just took me to a place I’ve always tried to cut off from my mind. I laid my book down, closed my eyes and rested my head on the wall behind me.

        Oh take me back to the start

        The song was about a broken relationship with the guy wishing he could go back to the start and fix it all. It meant something different to me. It sent hundreds of what ifs across my mind. What if I could go back to the start? What if I could go back and tell everyone about the real me – that I’m gay. By now, I would be happy. I would be living my life as my true self. I would have done everything I wanted to do. Yes, I’m only 18 years old, but I feel like I’ve missed out on such a huge part of my life. All because of the fact that I had to hide behind a mask. And I’m too scared to ever take it off.

        This is my last year of high school. I should be enjoying myself but how can I, when I’m not even being myself?

        “Rob, are you okay?” My eyes shot open. It was Allison, my bestfriend and one of the few people who I’ve already come out to. Her eyes looked terribly worried, contrasting with her fun curly hair.

        “I’m okay.” I shot her a smile and got up as I heard the bell ring. I think I heard her ask me to wait for her, but I didn't. I just really wanted to be alone right now.

        I grabbed my bag, dug for my car keys and walked as fast as I could to the school parking lot. I drove to Café Ngiti. I always went there for homework or just to spend some time. Ngiti meant smile in Filipino and their coffee never failed to make me smile whenever I was really down.

        "Hey, Kevin," I greeted the guy at the counter. He smiled. I’ve known him for quite some time now since, I always came here. He was 19 years old and was studying at the same university I applied for. He always talks to me whenever I’m here, so we’re already kind of close.

        "Hi, Rob," he smiled. I suddenly noticed that he had a great smile. His brown hair was brushed up leaving his smouldering eyes in full view. He was usually all messy looking. "The usual?" He asked me.

        "Yeah, a macchiato, but make it a venti this time. I seriously need caffeine.” They say coffee makes you all jumpy, but its effect on me is the opposite. It relaxes me. While other people take drugs as an escape from reality, I’d rather have coffee.

        “Hey.” He waved a hand in front of my face. I didn’t notice “Am I really that hot with my hair like this?”

        I laughed. “No, you’re just a lot more cocky than usual,” I smirked and handed him the payment.

        "If you want to talk, just tell me. Okay?" he smiled again but now, with concern on his face. He's too cute.

        I mentally shook my head. He’s straight, Rob. Stop it.