Love In The Moonlight

Why do we fear death is it because we know the pain that is left behind or because we just cant stand never seeing that person again.

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I still remember  the day I first saw him, Amazing Phil was his Youtube name, and yes he was amazing.I remember when he first contacted me after months of leaving messages for him. Squealing and jumping of my bed.

The first time we Skyped and his blue eyes popping onto the screen.You could get lost in those eyes, you could.

His smile that could light up the world and the way he said my name... Dan. Like it was the most special name in the world, and how he would carry me when I was sick or hug me when I was low or smile at me and squeezed my arm when he was happy.

All those things that made him mine is now hers.

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'Dan, I'm home' Phil called opening the front door.

'In here ' He walked through the door and  into the living room.'Care to join me in a little Mario Cart' I said waving the controller.

'As great as that sounds I have a lot to do for tonight'

'what's tonight'

'well I am planning to propose to Luella'

My heart crashed to the floor. Any hopes and dreams  of making him mine vanished like a speck of dust. All  I had left were ashes.

'Dan, Dan you alright' Phil waved a hand in front of my face.

'What.. oh yeah I'm great. Just great. Good luck' And with that I stormed out of the room and into mine closing the door a little harder then I intend. Did he not see, or care or did he but just ignored it.

'Oh Phil Lester I do love you so'I cried into my pillow.