Thugs Don't Fall In Love (StudxStud)

The Pain Of Losing Someone

Tazmine's POV:

I cannot think of a reason not to hold Jeezy at this moment... As soon as we stepped in, she just started going crazy. I don't know why his death is so painful for her even though I've saw a lot of people die in my school this year and last year. My own mama died because I was too small and weak to protect her......

"Samar...man... Why?!" Jeezy grabbed Samar's hand and sat in the chair beside his hospital bed. She looked tired and upset.... I can understand why though.. I wish I could tell her she's not alone. But I definitely don't like her like Hunna keeps assuming. I just really empathize her. And feel like she's a good person on the inside... Why did I have to come here... I don't want to see her like this... "Jeezy maybe... You need a moment to-" as I reached out to touch Jeezy's shoulder, she smacked my hand away and pushed me with one hand, sending my skinny ass stumbling into Hunna's arms..

My anger is brewing with this girl... My patience is thinning. I don't know why she just did that to me, making me hit Hunna. All I was trying to do was help.

"Don't fuckin touch me man... I don't need nobody ta hold ma hand dawg. Leave. All of y'all jus fuckin leave..." Her voice cracked slightly as she gripped his hand tightly with her other hand and had her palm pressed against her thigh with the hand she pushed me with..... I hate seeing anyone like this.. But maybe she does need alone time with Samar before he passes away. He looks really peaceful sleeping... "Fine you fucking asshole. All we wanted to do was be here for you and give you and Hunna your last moments with him. You don't have to be alone Jeezy. You are not alone. But if you wanna be like this, I'll leave you alone. And take her with me. Since you obviously think this is all about you...." Grabbing Hunna's hand, I tugged her out the hospital room, shutting the door behind us.. Jeezy is selfish... I shouldn't have even considered coming here. For a total stranger and an prick of a stud.

Hunna was squeezing my hand tightly while we walked further from the room. We weren't needed and Hunna felt it.. I knew she felt hurt because Jeezy neglected to have her back and be empathetic like her. She felt abandoned because Jeezy hadn't been anything but controlling and left her to hurt alone. As much as she wanted to be there with Jeezy and dying Samar. She felt sad. But, I know what will cheer that puppy face up! "Hunna?" (BTW It's Pronounced Hu-anna). She side eyed me before she looks down. I feel so heart broken at the thought of the people I care about hurting "Yeah Tazzy?" Even her voice sounds do sad and low... I know the feeling of disappointment too well... "Let's go get some pizza, hot wings, and a box of ice cream. We can share... I promise I won't eat it all. We can play video games too. I got 2k and COD!..." Only way to cheer her up is to appeal to what she likes... I like seeing her and people around me happy. At least I can make her feel better.

"Aiight. But I wanna be playa one and whoever loses gotta do what da otha one say. Deal?"

Damn... Hunna drives a hard bargain. I feel like she got something up her sleeve for this. But as long as she doesn't start crying and stuff, it's cool.. I'm pretty sure she doesn't cry anyway. I don't think I've ever seen Hunna cry before.

"Deal!"

(I know it's short. Only 635 words. I just couldn't write more. I'm in class and I'm tired now. It's a lot to think about at the moment. Please be patient. I actually finally decided to vet back on the saddle to update for you guys)