A Wish Upon A Star (Emison)

Goodbyes

Alison POV

When I get to the Pent House, Emily grins at me, "welcome Princess." She kisses me and I walk in, already smelling the weed and alcohol all around me.

"Happy Birthday Emily," I kiss her cheek and she chuckles, "thank you Als. See? I remember." I nod, "Ems...we gotta talk," I say and the other girls walk in, making Emily frown, "okay? Let's...go over here."

We all go into a separate room and Emily nods, "what's up?"

Hanna bites her lip and Spencer nods, "alright well. We just needed to talk to you Ethan about...what were we going to talk to him about?"

I snap my head to Spencer and shake my head, "no. No Spence not you too." She frowns, "what?"

Feeling the tears surfacing, Hanna sighs, "okay Alison needs to talk to you Emily and now. She knows what's going on."

Emily stares at Hanna and then at me, "you do?"

I nod weakly, "yes. And I...Ems I want you to be back to your old self." I grab his hand but he shakes his head, "but you love Ethan. I love being Ethan."

His words make me step back slightly, "Emily. This isn't you. You're forgetting our history! You're forgetting every memory we shared, every kiss, every hug, every laugh! I only loved Ethan because it's Emily Fields in there..." I press a finger to his chest, then shake my head.

"But...I don't want to forget us. Spencer and Aria already forgot Emily. What if I'm next? Emily I can't forget you. I love you too much. Please. You need to turn back. Maybe if you say you want to turn back...you will."

He stares at me, "no."

"What?" Hanna and I both say in unison and I glance at her nervously.

"What do you mean no, Emily?"

He sighs, "Alison." His hand slips into mine as he walks me over to the bed, sitting me down, smiling warmly at me.

"I like my life. I love my life. I have the dream. I'm rich, popular and I have you. Not to mention that I fit in really well."

My eyes shut, a grunt escaping my throat, "Emily..."

"It's Ethan. I can feel myself changing. And by midnight tonight, I know I'll be Ethan for good. I can feel it. We can start over Alison. You can be with Ethan."

"I DON'T WANT TO BE WITH ETHAN!" I scream, jumping up from the bed, causing Spencer, Aria and Hanna to jump in shock.

Emily stares at me in confusion, "excuse me?"

"Emily! I love you! I love Emily Fields! I don't care about Ethan! I only love Ethan because I know Emily Fields is trapped in there! I love you, Emily. I don't love whoever it is you're becoming. I love Emily because of our history. And because of her personality. Ethan is taking over and from what I've seen, I don't like it! I miss Emily Fields. I miss my best friend."

I don't even realize I'm crying until he stands up, swiping the tears from my cheek.

"Alison," he whispers, only making my chest ache, knowing that he wants to stay as Ethan still.

"Alison look at me," he gently strokes my cheek and when I look into his eyes, his eyes are teary themselves.

"I didn't...I didn't know that was how you felt. I just...I don't know what I want. To tell the truth? I'm lost, Alison. I don't know who I want to be. What if I can't turn back into Emily? I will be stuck like this forever. Or if I turn back to Emily, what if I become depressed because I liked being a male better? I'm confused, Alison."

I sniffle, bringing my hand up to his cheek, "I don't want to lose you." My voice comes out in hoarse plead and he nods, "I don't want to forget what we had. What we have. I don't know what to do anymore."

I sob, tugging on his shirt, my face pressed against his chest and Hanna clears her throat, "did I miss something?"

We look at her and she chuckles, "if you two are going to have sex, at least let us leave first. Ethan have some respect for children ears," she informs, covering Aria's ears who giggles.

I look at Emily and he gulps, "what time is it?"

I look at my phone and close my eyes, "11:55."

Once they're all gone, he takes my hands, "I don't want to forget us...I love you too much Alison. Our history is my entire life. You're my entire life."

I nod, "me too."

He sighs, "this sucks."

My lips pull up slightly as we walk to the balcony, "agreed." "If I forget Emily...I just...I need to tell her something. One last thing."

He looks at me and I can see a flicker of Emily still in there. I take in a deep breath and smile wobbly, my lips quivering. 

"Thank you. For being my best friend. Emily I...I can't begin to describe how I feel about you. I would say that you make me a better person but I'd be lying because you've always told me to just be myself. Your heart is so pure and bright. From our first kiss, I knew that I was in love with you. You make my feel things that I never thought possible. You aren't just a part of my life Emily Fields. You are my life. You're my heart. You're me. You're the best parts of me and without you in my life...I know my life will be dull and boring. I can't thank you enough for being my life. I love you so much. And I will never forget those..." I feel tears coming on but I try to choke them back.

"T-those beautiful brown eyes of yours and y-your smile...I...I wanted to get married one day and...have a family? Maybe? And I...I...I just love you so much." I sob into his chest and he rubs my back, "I love you too Alison."

After a few moments he sniffles and I can feel him crying into me before he whispers, "goodbye Alison."

I cup his cheeks, smiling, nothing but heartbreak all over my face as I nod, "goodbye Emily."

We look up at the sky, the silence heavy.

"Hey. A shooting star," he says gently and I look up, wiping my billowing tears to see the bright streak shoot across the sky.

I stare at it, then close my eyes.

I wish for Emily to know who she is and be who she is, as long as she is happy.

When I open my eyes I can still feel his rough, male arms around me. My head looks over at the clock and see that it's now 12:00 AM.

Happy Birthday.

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