THE TRIP

Gone

As I drunkly stumble into my apartment I hear a small sound. Fuck Amanda is here. I walk in the the hallway to see her short curvy figure standing there at the start of my living room.She turns around her long blonde hair swaying after her as she looks at me with a cigarette in her hand "Where have you been?" she says in a small tiny voice sounding worried. Her big brown eyes look sad and as I stare right into them its if she shrinks into a tiny little puppy. Sweet, innocent and completely adorable. The guilt instantly kicks in. As I drunkly take a few steps forward I manage to push some words out of my lips. "I..I...... Went to the party!" She looks up at me in sadness. "I thought you were going to stay home? Thats why I didnt go!" She said accusingly. Her voice is cracking and I can tell she on the verge if crying. I take two step forward and wrap my arms around her. "Amanda its just I wanted to go with some friends? You know? Just me and the boys" I say. She pushes her self away from me and looks me straight in the eyes. "Are you lieing to me?" She says. I look down at the ground as the guilt grows and grows. What have I done? "Amanda look..." I start but she interupts me "Im done with you Liam! Im sick and tired of you treating me like shit!YOU CHEATED ON ME AGAIN DIDNT YOU!" She screams. I nodded and when she sees this she storms towards the door. I try to grab her wrist. "LET GO OF ME YOU FUCKING PIG! DONT EVER TALKED TO ME AGAIN!" She screams. She may be small but she fights. I let go relentlessly knowing I shouldnt let her leave. "I came here because my parents kicked me out! I thought I was safe here! I thought I could trust you" she yells. In that moment I realise she is crying. I feel worse and worse each moment as I watch her leaving slamming the door shut. I stare at the closed brown door. I feel the emptiness grow in my chest and I just want her to come back. I just want her cute little smile to light up my world. I want to look into her eyes and tell her what she means to me explain to her that she is my world. Tell her I love her. I want her back. But I know I will never get to hold her close again. I know I will never ever in my life get to be with Amanda again. She was gone from the instant I kissed another girl. GONE.