Lost, Scared, Alone

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Disclaimer: I do not own Blue Exorcist (Ao no exorcist) or any of it's characters just the plot.
Most of  this is in Rin's point of view
Hope you enjoyyyyy <3
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Crimson red. Blood. Cut. Die.

'Demon' is what the cut said.

The drips of blood ran down my arm smoothly but slowly.

It's not as messed up as you think. Cutting keeps me sane and if I have to do it for the rest of my life then so be it. I don't care how long I do it, I don't care if I die in the end, I don't care what the others will think of me if  they find out, I don't care about how much it hurts.

I washed my arm and pulled my sleeve down before Yukio could come in.

I got myself ready for the night. I won't dare fall asleep for another nightmare, I stay up every night, I don't care if I fail school.

.oOo.
Being on the roof helps me calm down. I sat there for the entire night; it's just my thoughts to comfort me.

(Yukio's P.O.V.)

I had just came back from a mission early in the morning. I went inside my room to see that Rin wasn't there. I got a bit worried so I decided to look for him around the dorm "Rin?" I began to look at the stairs that lead to the roof. I began walking upstairs hoping Rin was there "Rin?" He was silent sitting on the roof, looking at the distance. "Rin?" No reply.

"Rin are you okay?" I asked.

He gave me a quick nod.

"Rin...what's wrong?"

"Nothing." He stated coldly. Liar.

"Rin tell me what's wrong" I said.

"It's nothing Yukio really" he gave me a toothy grin. I sighed with relief.

"Ok well I'm gonna get ready for school" I stood up.

"I'll meet you there" he smiled.

(Rin's P.O.V.)

It's for the best that he doesn't know about my cutting habit. And it's gonna stay that way.

I began getting myself ready for the day, but I then realized that I would have to face everyone again. I'll have to force that painful smile again.

I walked out of the dorm and began walking to school.

All eyes were on me.

"Demon!"

"Monster!"

"Murderer!"

"You don't belong here!"

"Spawn!"

My bangs covered my face, so no one knew what face I had.

It was lifeless. I didn't need to pull the smile if people couldn't see me.

"Die!"

Do you really think I want to live after what everyone has done to me? I'm a demon, thus, I can't commit suicide just like that. And with people always keeping me away from holy water in order to 'protect' me it's more difficult then you realize.

.oOo.

Normal classes were an absolute hell. Another reason for me to cut after cram school today.

I was right in front of the door.

There was laughter on the other side.

A horrible ache suddenly appeared on my chest.

It hurts. But I've been through worse.

I didn't have the energy to smile anymore, why? Today was no different from the other days. So why can't a pull the act?

I decided not to spend any time trying to figure it out. I put my head down with my bangs covering most of my face so no one can see my face.

I opened the door.

The laughter stopped, in its place a painful silence.

"Oh your still here" Bon said, I couldn't see what face he was throwing at me, but I could guess. Hatred, disgust, he wants me to die, one of my first friends wants me to die.

"I don't get it why is the spawn of Satan in our class?!" He shouted.

"Someone like you shouldn't exist!" I still can hear, he walked towards me.

"Just die." I wanted to cry. Why? Why is something like this making me sad? I just went through a hell of a day at normal classes, so why am I now sad?

I walked away from him and sat in the back of the room.

"Monster." It hurts...so much...

(Bon's P.O.V.)

I couldn't see what Rin's expression was when I told him to die, but I didn't care. Someone like him shouldn't exist.

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I know, I know XD
I should be focusing on 'Demon child' but I'm trying to find a way I can transition into the chapter :3
Well I hope you enjoy this book as much as you enjoy 'Demon child'

Bai Bai~