💧Hard times *Alec Lightwood fanfiction*💧

💜Chapter One💜

It's been a week since Alec tried to commit suicide - not one of us spoke about it but I knew he was holding back, every time I tried to talk to him he would just say he wasn't ready.
I nodded knowing he will eventually say something, but it was making him ill.
He was to weak to go on missions, he wasn't eating, or sleeping, every time he did, we woke up fifteen minutes later to him screaming.

It was killing him.

But Jace and Clary pissed me off the most-it was as if it never happened and they were still trying to get into each others pants.
Izzy was a mess, in the end, Simon took her away from this world so she could go back to the way she was, though I highly doubt it.

I walked down the empty corridor of the bedrooms but I stopped when I saw blood splatters on the floor. I grabbed my seraph blade and followed it.

It led to Alec's room, his door was slightly ajar. I opened it and gasped as I saw he was bleeding out. I dropped my blade and ran to him.
"Alec, please wake up." I spoke as tears clouded my eyes. He didn't and I checked whether he was breathing. He was but it was faint. I traced over the healing rune and it stopped him bleeding. I grabbed water and bandages and cleaned his wrists.

My shaking hands were covered in blood. The tears never seemed to cease. When I cleaned his wrists, I checked his back. Scars were everywhere and I couldn't help but give a strangled cry. I washed his back and drew a healing rune. It helped a little bit but the scars were still visible and red.
I checked his breathing, it was how it should be so, I guess he was unconscious.
I quickly stripped his bed and made it before, I gently heaved him up and placed him.
I cleaned the floor and all traces of blood from me. I closed the door and locked it.

I placed water on his bedside and sat besides him, taking my hand in his, but as the minutes ticked by I couldn't help but fall asleep.

When I awoke, Alec was still unconscious. I arose slowly and sneaked out grabbing myself some food.
When I entered the kitchen everyone looked up. "Do you know where Alec is?" Jace asked.
"He's asleep." they nodded and I grabbed some food. "Do you want me to take Alec the food?" I asked Hodge, he nodded "if it gets cold warm it up, and it should be fine."

I nodded and grabbed the tray before leaving.
Upon entering his room, I closed the door and locked it. Quietly placing the tray down...
" What are you doing?" a strained voice sounded.
I turn my head to him but I couldn't utter a word all I saw was him bleeding out. A tear slips down my face and I swipe it a way.
"Do you remember what happened?" he frowned."What are you talking about?" he asked.
"I found you on the floor bleeding out..." he paled and winced as he stood up quickly.
"What is happening Alec?" I asked. He turned to me and tears fell down his face.
I walked forward and swiped them away. "Tell me please and after you do I won't tell anyone." I spoke. "Promise" his voice spoke cracking with sadness. I nodded yes "I promise." he grabbed my hand that was placed on the side of his cheek.
"The clave they found out about the unsanctioned missions and because I am the oldest out of all of you they abuse me, as punishment for not doing my job." I gasped and tears slipped down my face "then they are no better than my father." I spoke.
"I want out of it but I can't because of your sister." I nodded "then we think of something, I know what it's like." he frowned and I lifted my shirt up. Scars were on my back as well. "My mum did this to me because she prefers Clary over me." I spoke. He traced over them and I held my breath at his touch. Butterflies danced in my stomach despite the situation.

A knock sounded on his door and I pulled my shirt back down. Alec threw on a top wincing before he grabbed the dinner. I unlocked the door to find Jace and Clary. They entered not saying anything, this action cased me to  frown.
"I thought you said he was asleep."
"He was but when I took his food in he woke up." they didn't look they believed this.
"It's true, I woke up to her placing food on my bedside table." he spoke.
They nodded, "so what do you want?" he asked. "We're going to see Magnus Bane for our memories." I turned to Alec who was expressionless. "I want to tell the Clave." I spoke hoping that it won't get any worse for Alec. "Come on this is our memories we should get the back without following some stupid rules." Clary spoke.

It was then I slapped her hard across the face.