My home is with him.. always has been and always will be.

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Every time he leaves I say it doesn't bother me and that I don't feel what I feel for him...
And without fail when he comes back and he always does immediately I feel my home in him I can deny with his absence and usually the results from whatever makes him go that time, but I can't get over how comfortable he feels when we reunite and he knows me on a level only he can from where we've been and all we've gone through and I can detest him as he's leaving and curse him to damnation knowing full well when he returns so does my home in him along with a deepest bond and familiarity of comfortability only attainable with him and our past that never broke us and very well should have years ago but here we are still. Back home and settled in already with a bond between us that is just so peaceful and flowing with ease of what we have become that I value and forget how much I miss until I'm nestled in and we're right where we left off like he just went for milk and I'm cuddled up giving him the rundown on everything of cute and what I couldn't wait to share with you because only you know and understand everything that matters to me exactly and why... you've been here so long that it now matters the same to you... my home I have in you that includes everything that I intentionally and purposely leave out of the occasional random situations I take on in your absence because first off that's all our stuff and secondly for the way I know deep inside instinctively is never going to be permanent or substantial enough to bring in everything that is too precious to risk damaging with a situation that is not going to be relevant for long and even though I insist we're over with for good that time I am always waiting your return from the minute you walk away till the moment you return and it's always exactly when I need you most and in you come with a quick chastising and immediate reunification of our home, heart and family I never gave up on no matter how much shit I talked the whole time aching in my soul for my return home and my only one who gets the entire package deal that includes myself as well as my baggage I'd never dream of bringing into a brief encounter with the substitute for the real deal and the chosen one for the last open slot in our family I gave you long ago when the kids were still small and we were ready for the same we are today and every time we try again we're getting closer to the completion of our family all under one roof for good and no ones leaving and no worries for anything of that nature we are more than certain isn't in our future.. everyone supposedly important and the one who'll stay is long gone and never returned after leaving but all these years later you're still by my side and a home for me I don't want to keep coming and going... stay and be wh know and what is so much to us we are always going to come back to regardless of the finales of never again we know are complete bullshit as we say it walking out the door and full well knowing we're coming back.. words harsh to sever ties and chances of reuniting we know are bullshit but we have to be tough with conviction that's the last goodbye but we know that's never going to be possible and that's not our future. We've seen that already and most likely what brings us back home for how significant and meant to be it is.. time has softened our stubborn and our need to be right.. it's finally settled our power struggle and the home in us is something we know we'll only have with each other. This time tho... I felt it the instant you came home.. this is it , we've reached the point where we won't be separating again or going anywhere except to the next and final step to unify us for the rest of the road and in a blood binding of combined souls with a love big enough for the extension of our purpose to be together nothing has been able to stop...the creation we've always planned for is patiently waiting to get home and finally complete the task of forever binding us and showing the reward and gift of vast greatness in what we will create with the blending and coming together as one in one who will be the shining light of our love and dedication for our child we've always known has a greater purpose for why we had to go through such struggles and tests we have passed. Something far superior to this earth brought us to the other when it should have never been possible but what we are meant to create from the combining of us has been known for an importance of something so beyond our understanding but a knowledge that the path we've been on has been going the right direction even when it seemed we were lost and we were always on the right road and the time has arrived for the tests to cease and the one who's going to be half you and half me is ready to depart and make its way home and all we've been through is about to be revealed for the immense magnitude of what we were destined to be matched for only we can produce together and we're aware it's going to be something this world has never come across for what our child has been chosen for and so important the cosmos searched the entire world for the perfect match for the creation we alone have been given the honor to bring into this life that has made two opposites from one side of the world and the absolute other side.. years apart in age but a fit for the other as if made as a set that got separated and years later miraculously found its mate that shouldn't have but nothing is chance or coincidence.. we were always going to collide even from extreme opposite sides of the world and set complete once again now our purpose is upon us and the feeling we're ready I sensed from the first coming back together after separating that's never been so soothing and apparent that it is indeed time to return home and we won't be going anywhere but the same direction side by side and hand in hand. Everything we've went through is now going to show us what for and with how it feels this time our reward is on the way and it's more than a baby.. I can tell you feel it too. I'm confident that we finally made it and welcome home love.. I've been waiting for you since you left. It's time to proceed with everything we've always wanted we are finally being allowed to have . We proved ourselves and without doubt solidified our love that got us through and all the way here. I'm home again and for good this time.. we already locked into the other and you know everything I do.. we made it my love 😍 but we always knew we would 😏💋❣️
S.R. Salazar daughter