A Girls's Life

Breathe.

I like to pretend to be someone I'm not,

Because it helps me to erase all those thoughts.

The ones that I get when I stare into space.

But oh! How it hurts when they shove through my face.

It burns my eyes, my cheeks, my nose.

Here come the tears, now there they go.

I can't control them or keep them inside,

Please help me! I have to hide!

From my fears, my thoughts, my friends.

Please tell me...Does it ever end?

The constant voices in my head

If they don't stop soon, I think I'll be dead.

Bleeding out colorful thoughts on the floor

Colorful thoughts, but I wish I had more.

The ones that I own are screaming in pain.

The demon of my mind made sure they were slain.

In a merciless act, he thought he did right.

But not even my memories put up a fight.

They slowly let themselves fade away

And for the darkness to come, it only took a day.

It devoured my emotions, making me blind,

To the only living creature that I thought was kind

Enough to lend me her own life and soul

And with no sight at all, I threw her in a hole

Then filled the chasm with our dead dreams,

So the one who drowned would remember me.

Specifically my eyes, the cause of his death.

He drowned in my lies, and gave his last breath

To utter these words, that everyone dreads,

"The reason I'm here is because you're not dead."

Then his body sank down into the depths of an ocean.

One full of stars and life without motion.

So that leaves us with two dead but pure beings

Who were the only ones to have managed me seeing

That their deaths are a constant reminder to me

That for the first time in my life, I should stop and just breathe.