Golden Times

A TIME OUT

CHAPTER 10

Well, a time out of the stuffy hospital room and be out here on the rooftop wasn't really what I had in mind but it can be for now.. It's fun being with these people.. I mean, I can see how their attitudes can clash any moment but somehow it also clicks and fits like two pieces of a puzzle..

I mean. How can that be? So different yet, so the same..?

"But seriously though? Why didn't you girls ever come to visit?" Eomma asked once we were all munching on the food he prepared. I swear all the other food taste like nothing when compared to his cooking. It seems like a god made them!

"We were busy with our jobs, family and other stuff.. It was all too hectic.. I mean, there was a sudden turn of events and it only died down recently so now we have the time to take a leave.. But let me ask this.. Why do we, girls, need to come visit you, boys. Shouldn't it be the other way around?" Joyce said and gave them an accusing look..

"Hey now, that's unfair. Why do you throw the blame on us? I mean, we went to the Philippines but we were stuffed with preparations for our concert there so we couldn't really get to meet you.. You know our life is a little hectic too. We're idols.." Yoongi answered not really giving it that much attention..

"You were both busy so it's all just fair." I said to join in the conversation.. I noticed that there were two noisy people being quiet.. "Hey, is something wrong?" I asked and they looked at me before following my line of sight to Allenie and Anne..

It took them a while to notice that I was asking them that question..

"Oh us? We're okay.. Why'd you ask?" Allenie answered while Anne gave an unconvincing smile.. "If you don't want to talk about it then fine.. I'm in no position to pry right now when I barely even remember stuff.." I mumbled..

"Yah.. This is our reunion. Why are you guys being such sour plums and ruining the mood? Lighten up please?" Taehyungie said..

"Yeah, a reunion with people I can barely remember.. God, I wish I can remember everything!" wait.. did I.. say that.. out loud?

I looked up and they were all looking at me now. Guess I did.. The look in their eyes showed pity.. and it triggered something in me.. something bad..

I don't want their pity.. Yeah, I'm frustrated at myself for not remembering them and I wish I can remember already but.. I don't need them to look at me like that.. I don't want them to feel pity for me..

"I lost my appetite.." Just as I was about to stand up.. I new wave of memories started playing..

"You still write replies?? Isn't that a little egoist?"

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"That's why I told you to stop doing those.. Do you want other people to pity you??" a guy asked me.. "That was not my intention. I don't need their pity. I don't have any intention of making myself look like that in front of others!"

I was crying already...

"But that's what happened. Those were the consequences of your actions. That's why your haters won't stop since they're using your own attitude against you. Even if you have a good intention, other people don't think so.."

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I thought that was the end of it.. But there was something more.. A bittersweet memory I don't even think I'd want to remember..

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"Angie has.. an incurable disease.." he told my family.. "Incurable? is it just like..?" my dad asked, he looked so shocked and devastated..