The Love of my Dreams

My best friend.

It was like any other typical day when I found Vasilios sitting with our friends, my friends.

The one and only Vasilios, the school's golden prince was sitting in my seat! I could hardly breathe.

What was it all worth? I can't hide my true feelings much longer, people are starting to suspect me.

I know, I know, having a crush on the popular pretty boy, sounds pretty cliche to me. Nothing is extraordinary. Well, except for the fact that he has a sexy Grecian name. "Vasilios", what a beautiful sound. It sounds sexy however way you say it. He truly is a king.

We have been bestfriends since, well, what it seems like forever.

Vasilios and I grew up next door, whenever any one of our families went on a summer trip the other would tag along.

We used to go on little adventures along the river near houses and dare each other to skinny dip in the river, and even sometimes go streaking. This one time I ended up getting hurt real bad from an accident in the water. Let's just not talk about that tragic memory. On the bright side, when that happened Vasilios carried me all the way home with his strong, slinky arms.

He was a lean boy, had freckles, eyes as blue as the Mediterranean Sea and gorgeous blonde waves in is short fade hair.

I never found an interest in him until middle school, when we all were hitting puberty and kids were still making jokes on questioning thier sexuality. I just believed that we would always be best bros, having eachother's backs at all times even through breakups' parties and drunk nights.

It's been nearly 3 years since I've talked to Vasilios. Within these past years I have been through a lot of shit. Like going through my teenage mid life crisis, and thinking about when will I ever get a girlfriend.

The more I thought about getting a legit girlfriend, led to me questioning about my sexuality. I always admired how Vasilios did it, he was like a chick magnet wherever he went. It seemed like he would get laid at least once every week.

For a while I thought that was jealousy I felt was towards him, until I realized that I wasn't jealous of him. I was jealous of how much time those other girls got to spend with him, and I really missed him. I miss my bestfriend. I mean, if you have not talked to the one person you "loved" for a long time, would you miss them?

This strong feeling then lead to the question, "Do I really love you?" No homo man.
Little did I know that I was gay. Yes, I am into guys. My whole life, I just had been hiding that fact from myself for so long and it felt great when I told my disappointed mother.

I mean, the only "girlfriends" I've ever had were all older than me, yes they were beautiful and hot but they treated me like a little brother.

Well, yes my first kiss was a girl but no make out ever felt right, there was no spark to burst a flame. I have never hooked up with any one because nothing ever felt right, even though I was being called a manhwore because rumors spread that I hooked up with this thot and cheated on my girlfriend.

Thankgod Vasilios saved my ass and stood up for me. He was my Knight in Shining Armor. Whenever Vasilios was around I would reminisce about our cherished memories and stars were twinkling.

When Vasilios walks through a door he bring a burst of the Sun's ray onto you and you feel the warmth and happiness of his embrace. He's the sunshine. My sunshine.

I would not have became who I am without him, he helped me get my work turned in on time so that I would be able to keep my grades up to play on the basketball team. I wouldn't have ever made it to team captain if it weren't for his persuasion, inspiration, and motivation.

The team hated me and the coach tried his best. I was, I am an idiot, jackass, asshole, fuckboy, wannabe, douche... you name it, that's what I am to every one. I would like to be better but at the same time, I really dont give any fucks to anybody.

My problem is, if the whole school sees me as that kid with a bad reputation of being an asshole and a douche, then why doesn't Vasilios notice me anymore?

I put up this facade that makes people think I'm a complete imbecile to make me seem cooler to be one of the Bros, but deep inside I have feelings for my long-time best friend, and he doesn't even know. I am popular but for the most negative reasons, he is popular because he gets a new bitch every other week. They all seem like they either want to eat him or jump on his bones!

I just really want my bestfriend back and love me for me. Even when I know that he will only ever see me as a bestfriend and brother from another mother, I want to relive our childhood memories again.

I guess it is time for me to do it.