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Parallels (Edited)

I am so happy that Logan is back in town for a few weeks. He has been such a big help with the twins. They are still very colicky. Luckily for the past week their crying has toned down to occur only between the hours of six and ten at night. Tonight is Logan's night with the twins. He's over getting them situated in their car seats.

I sit on the couch watching. I'm still not happy about the twins staying over night with him, but a girl needs a break from all that crying. I was literally seconds away from ripping the hair out of my skull. Mark came over when I certainly wasn't expecting him to and he kissed me. His lips touched mine and he refused to let go when I tried to move him. As if my life was a damn soap opera, Logan had to show up and witness Mark kissing me.

Logan was upset. He demanded to know why Mark and I had been kissing and when neither of us uttered a word, he turned and left slamming the door in the process. Of course, Mark immediately apologized blaming the kiss on me being so beautiful when I cried. I couldn't think or do anything about it because in the background the twins were still crying.

Logan came and sat by me. The twins were sound asleep. It was only two in the afternoon. "We need to talk about what happened."

I turned to face him. "Do we really? I'm single. He's single. Your separated."

Logan seemed surprised by my attitude. "So, it is okay for you to kiss me and my brother?"

I flinched. I wanted to tell Logan that I hadn't meant to kiss Mark. I didn't even really like Mark intimately. As a friend, he is the best, but nothing more. But I didn't know how to say that without blaming it all on Mark. I was not about to be the girl who came in between two brothers. They act strange around each other already. I couldn't be the blame for anymore strife. "He had just come over, Logan. I thought it was you at the door. The twins had been crying for hours. I was crying because I felt like a crap mother. Mark was saying all these nice things and in the moment I just wanted to feel something other than depression. If I'm being honest I can say the kiss meant nothing, it was awful actually, nothing like-" I trailed off before I admitted to loving the kiss we shared.

"Do you like him?"

I shook my head. "I want him as a friend. We get along really well. He's attractive, sure, but there are no sparks or passion. The kiss proved that for me. I don't know how to let him down easy is the problem."

Logan nodded. He turned away and ran his hands through his hair. "I know you're single, Bella. I still don't like you making out with my brother. Any other guy maybe, but not him. If I can't have you, it's not fair that he should."

What?

Before I could respond to the statement he slapped me with Tegan started to whine and Logan rushed to her side. He quickly fitted the pacifier back to her mouth quieting her. "I should go. I'll see you tomorrow bright and early, I assume."

I could only nod. I watched him pick up a car seat, one in both hands and  walked out the door without looking back. I watched him strap them in the backseat of his car right before he drove off.

I shut the door as my mind thought about the implications of Logan's statement. He seemed to be interested, but he knew he'd get back with Vanessa. A part of me hurt at what he said. He didn't care who I was with as long as it wasn't Mark. I bet none of it had to do with Mark personally. Logan didn't want to have to see me around with someone that wasn't him. I could not win in this situation.

Do I want Logan? Yes, but I do not want to be responsible for the fall of a marriage.

Life sucks.

"I thought I had man problems," Nancy's voice interrupted my thoughts.

I looked over at her. She always dressed the same; dark hair in a bun with gray strands and some dingy brown dress. She didn't dress nice for work. It took a moment for her words to register. "You have man problems," I asked.

Nancy's hands rested on her hips. "I said, had, Missy."

I laughed. She caught my innuendo. "What kind of man problems?" She obviously wanted to tell me something.

She ushered me over to the huge dining room table where she had tea and cookies waiting for us. She obviously had overheard my conversation with Logan. I didn't mind. Nancy is a good worker. She does her job and she does not gossip.

I sat down across from her in the middle of the table. I took a sip of green tea while waiting for her to begin her tale.

"I was young and a freshman in college. I had followed my boyfriend Emil to where he received a scholarship for basketball. I thought I was hot stuff dating the sexiest basketball player. The school was expensive and I had to get a job. I saw a posting at a diner for a maid who could cook and clean. The pay was good so I called right up.

"A few days later, I pulled up to the biggest house I'd ever seen and met Robert Bedlum. He was a good looking older, married man and I knew my life would never be the same again. The next thing I know I was caught up in a whirlwind affair. I was in love with both Robert and Emil. I refused to let go of my past and my future.

"It all came crashing down when I got pregnant. I had no idea who the father of my baby was. Robert knew about Emil, but Emil did not know about Robert. I thought Emil had a right to know that the baby I was carrying might not be his. Before that night he'd never once yelled or even rolled his eyes at me. At the news, his heart turned black, a person emerged who I'd never seen. Emil nearly beat me to death. I lost my baby. I lost the chance to ever conceive again.

"Emil was arrested. My affair with Robert came up in court. Robert abandoned me, publicly claiming I came on to him several times before he caved. I was ostracized from school and everywhere. I couldn't get a job. You know back then, who you knew was a big deal. I hit rock bottom. I got into drugs for a few years. Next thing I know, I'm on the street and alone.

"By sheer chance, I bumped into Robert on a corner. I was on the ground cold and lonely. He took me in and got me clean. He told me the facts of life. One, I was just some young girl for him to screw and Two, he was never going to leave his wife for me.

"He got me hooked up with this job a few years later. I met my husband ten years later. We adopted a child who is fully grown now. Listen child, my point in telling you this is to make it clear to each one of these brothers who exactly they are in your life. Mom and Pop Spade are my employers, but I will tell you this, don't be fooled by Logan. He is a good looking man who's rich and the father of your children. He is also married, never forget that. Married men will cheat their butts off, but ninety nine percent of them won't leave their wives. Make sure you're not some young girl he's trying to play with"

"I understand," I responded. And I did, I really did.