So how has everyone been? I would love to hear from all of you. Feel free to tell me anything, not like I'm gonna tell anyone right? Cuz to be honest there would be no gain in it for me if I spread your secrets ;)
My turmoil has grown. I am weary from a long day. Although I am happy to FINALLY be able to understand my Mathematics, there is so much more going on.
I have one of the sweetest guys 'wooing' me. It makes me want to cry. What did I do to deserve him, or anyone else, liking me??? Im stubborn, i'm moody, I can be a total bitch at times. Basically i'm a dramatic teenager with a possibly unstable mind. Depression does that to someone. Even if you think it's nearly gone it's not. It is always there, lurking in the darkness.
You ever heard Demons by Imagine Dragons? Possibly one of the truest song ever. The eyes are a window to the soul. Imagine how it would feel to look in the mirror and see nothing. No twinkle, no joy, no innocence. Anyone with depression can understand what I mean, where I am comming from.
So many things happen every day. Some things make you smile, some make you want to cry. Yet for some people, it is like we are watching someone else experience these emotions. Like we are on the other side of the glass, watching that person laugh and smile, cry and sulk. Our emotions are muted. We mute them, so we don't succumb to their powerful abilties. So we dont get lost...
Welcome to Chaos ~ Fantasy
