The War for Survival (Survivors #2)

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

-Alec

Two weeks go by in a blur of doing nothing other than visit Erika daily for an hour. And nothing changes. Still in a coma.

I enter the room and sit by her bed. Sighing, I grasp her hand in mine. Her skin is soff and feels familiar within my touch but I just can't remember.

I lean up to whisper in her ear. "Erika.. I need you to wake up. Wake up for me.. Please. I can't do any of this without you..," my voice is broken and pleading just like my heart as I will her to wake up.

I need more. More of her. I need to remember. Leaning down, I kiss her forehead. Closing my eyes, I rest mine on hers and sigh. Please wake up..

A hand jerks away from mine and I lift my head up to see a panicked Erika. "Oh my God you're awake!" I run out the door. "Help! She's awake in here! Someone help!"

I run back and she panics, trying to speak but can't with the breathing tube down her throat.

Doctors rush in, keeping her calm and I stand aside. I watch as they pull it out of her throat and listen to them ask her questions.

"Do you know who that man is?" The doctor points at me and she nods. "Do you remember everything?"

"Y..yes.." she struggles to speak after the tubes been down her throat and its a bit rough and scratchy.

"Your voice should come back in a few days. How do you feel? Any headaches, dizzyness, etc?"

She shakes her head and continues answering any questions. After awhile, the doctors leave the room.

She looks over at me. "I.. I heard you.."

I stare at the floor. "I don't remember.. but Jared filled me in everything, and I watched all the footage I could find on the security tapes.. But I just can't remember and its driving me mad.."

"The insane ones ..are always the best.."

"What?"

"Its something.. I said to you.. when we went to test the vaccine..," she struggles to speak and grasps her throat.

"We'll talk later.. Your throat should heal first.." I stare down at the floor feeling exhausted, emotionally and physically. I can't remember, but I so badly want to.. "I um.. I'm glad you're okay. I'll see you later, I have some stuff I have to do.."

Without looking at her, I rise from my seat, grabbing my crutches, and leave the room. I feel so guilty for leaving her but right now I need to be alone..

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-Erika

"Remember if you have any headaches, dizzyness, anything you need to come right back here." The doctor goes on and on about the symptoms from my head injury but I tune her out.

I've been here for 2 weeks being monitored closely and all I want to do is finally escape. My legs already better for the most part from where the peice of glass was lodged in it.

My arm's still in a sling but it should be healed in a month or so.

I keep having nightmares from the crash, considering the events after it, it truly has been a nightmare.

But all of this doesn't even matter to me. All I can think about is Alec and how he doesn't remember me. I haven't even seen him since the day I woke up and I have no idea what he's been up to.

I'm finally released from the infirmary and go straight to my room. The doors creaked and I brace myself for the intruder. Cautiously, I push open the door.

"Surprise!!!" I jump at the crowd gathered in my apartment/ room.

"Welcome back!" Jared hugs me, careful with my shoulder.

I try to smile but it falters. I don't like surprises, especially not surprise parties. But I act like I do anyways for everyone else's sake. "Thank you guys, it means a lot."

"Glad to see you're okay.. I'm so sorry Erika," Mason's guilty face appears behind Jared's shoulder.

"Its okay, Mason. Its not your fault." I hug him and he gives a small smile.

My eyes search the crowd for Alec but I can't seem to find him. A sad feeling builds inside, more than the one I already have from his amnesia, and my smile starts to slip.

"Glad you're feeling better," I whip around to see Alec behind me.

I smile a little and nod. "Glad to see you're okay too."

"Yes, yes, we're all glad here. Now lets party!" Jared shouts and the crowd cheers. He leans over and whispers in my ear. "I know you hate it but the others were very persistent."

"Its okay. I could use a little fun for once.." I look over at Alec. "So how's it going?"

"Its good, I guess. I'm catching up, I mean I don't remember but people are telling me what all's happened."He shrugs, "But I have been going to the places I saw in the videos, trying to remember. I can't yet but maybe if I keep trying I finally will." He sighs and Jared hands him a beer. He's still on crutches and I have a feeling alcohol and broken ankles are not a very good mix.

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The party wasn't so bad but I hardly saw Alec during it. Everyone kept whisking me away to ask how I am and how I'm coping with his amnesia.

Which really pissed me off.

But I pushed through it till the end until everyone left. When they were all gone, I layed in my bed and cried until my eyes couldn't produce anymore tears.

My heart feels like it can never be fixed and my mind is more lost than its ever been before. I don't know what to do, or if I can even do anything about Alec. How could he forget me like that? I know its not his fault but I feel like I was never enough to be worth remembering. But Jared says that Alec loved me.. And a part of me believes that that's true, and that I will be worth remembering. But time will tell when he finally does, if he ever does. Or if he never will..