i woke up ealy today which i really regreted considering i had no school i logged on to oovoo and called lucy and lea we talked for a hour about boys and celeb gossip just like old times but i had to go get ready for my jog
"hey" i said to my mum
" you off for your run?" she asked
"yeah ill be back in half hour
*after run*
i went back up to my room to get changed out of my sweaty running clothes and walked over to my lap top and realized i had a Facebook message of my friend Dan we talked for hours when he asked me out i didn't no what to say as i hadn't been out with anyone since josh and i didn't want to get heart broken all over again.
i said yes in the end after a serious convo with lea and Lucy they can be very persuasive at times. me and Dan had a certain chemistry that i thought would only ever make us friends and it didn't feel right i was having mixed feelings with everything that's been going on with mum i just don't know why i just don't think me and Dan were going to get through being a couple i mean i guess i sort of still liked josh even though he broke my heart i just couldn't forget about him.
i walked over to Dan's house and knocked on the door softly he opened the door
"oh hey" he said "what you doing over here is everything okay?"
"uh well i think we need to talk" i said looking down at my feet feeling ashamed
"oh" was all he managed to say
"i don't think this uh i mean us is going to work out" i said shaking i gave him a quick glance
"wait what" he said looking astonished
"I'm really sorry but its over i have to go" i felt so guilty
all night i laid awake trying not to cry i was horrible to Dan he didn't deserve someone like me he deserves someone much better and I'm not that person.
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hey guys sorry its been ages i promise to update very soon hope you like this chapter vote and comment :*
laur x
