»Flashback
"Mommy please don't leave me" 15 year old Onika begged her mother as she packed her things to go and live with her boyfriend Malcolm, leaving the girl to stay with her now ex-husband. "Listen Nika Malcolm don't like kids and I ain't stable enough to take care of you.." Onika really didn't care what her mother was talking about she just didn't want to be left with James. "You could just send me back to Trinidad with your friend, mommy please don't leave me here. Carol only stared at her daughter before turning back to her suit case and zipping it up. Turning to her daughter Carol said "I Love You" she then got into the car and drove away. That was the last time her daughter had seen her.
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Nicki POV
3 years.
"Mommy look at me." I was snapped out of my thoughts by my three year old daughter Amari. Smiling I looked down at my watch and quickly got up. "Come on let's go Mari, we have to get home before Papa gets off work."
I know what your thinking you have a baby by him, well no I don't my baby doesn't belong to James at all.
As much as James raped me he was smart and used protection. I got pregnant when I was 15 . My mom had just left means he made me feel special, after 5 months I gave it up and he ended up moving away. When I found out I was scared, I told James and surprisingly he was calm. My whole pregnancy was good, he'd take me to appointments and even moved so that the baby would have her own room. After she was born though I suffered.
James had token me out of school and put me in this homeschool program; I graduated last year. He stopped me from going out side also, I was supposed to be in the house 24/7 and that's why I'm in a rush to get home. I sneak out every day so that my baby can go to the park, although James takes to to the all year round state fair (meaning it never leaves) every Sunday I still like to take her . Unfortunately her father moved away so I was never able to tell her father, Robert. I also recently heard he moved back and was looking for me.
Walking into the house I started dinner, I cooked Turkey necks, Macaroni, Rice and gravy, and to was it down Kool-Aid.
After I was down cooking Mari and I got in a quick shower which she was happy about. It was rule of James that we need to have a shower before he got home or else so, I always took a bath with my baby girl. Also the house had be clean before he got home so, I made our plates sat them on the table, put the rest of the food up and cleaned the kitchen. When I finished James walked through the door so we sat and ate.
"Your mother is coming on family day and she is bring her husband and there adopted children." My mom was told she couldn't have any more children because she almost died with me and my twin Anika. Anika didn't die my mother just gave her up because James told her to, one day I plan on finding her.
"Yes sir" I was happy to see my mother after three years and hoped she would take me back with her because I hate it here. "Go put Amari to bed." Quickly getting up I picked her up and walked her into my room putting her on my bed and turning to cartoons walking back downstairs to clean our plates.
"When you're finished meet me in my room
The only time I meet him in his room is when he's sexually frustrated or he's about to beat my ass. After I was finished I walked into his room to see him sitting on the bed with a belt in his hands. "I try with you Onika I really do and you constantly do things to piss me the fuck off. I'm going to ask you this one time and I would be real great-full if you didn't lie to me. Did you are did you not leave this house today?" His voice was stern and I was scared as hell I don't even know how he found out. "Yes sir but I only took Mari to the park." I wasn't going to lie to him and make him even more mad. "I DON'T GIVE A FUCK I DIDN'T TELL YOU TO NOR DID YOU CARE TO FUCKING ASK ME." He got off the bed and snatched me up by me shirt throwing me on the bed.
"Make sure you and Mari are ready were going on trip with your mother also."
I got and ran into my room. I cried myself to sleep.
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I think I'm going to make this a book and I apologize for no updating in forever.
