I used hate myself, I always thought I was a waste of space. Stupid, right. I would always get picked on and bullied at school and home was no better. My dad left when I was three and my mom beat my ass for it every day. I love my mom but, I hate her at the same time. I love her for giving me life and hate her for bringing misery to it. I vowed that if I ever had a child I wouldn't treat them the way my mother treats me. When I turned thirteen my mom went out and got help. She sent me back to Trinidad my original birth place to stay with my dad and his wife.
My dad left my mom to be with his mistress and told her he wanted nothing to do with me. One night I heard my mom talking on the phone to somebody pleading to let me stay with them. She told me that the person I was staying with was one of her close friends but, I knew she was lying.
When I finally landed I got off the plane and was nervous. My dad treated me well and kept me happy, his wife didn't really like me she said that I was always in the way. I stayed with my father for a year and then I was sent back to America with my mom. When I got back she was married to a man named James and he had a son named Josh. From the outside you'd think we were the perfect family but we weren't.
James would hit my mother and make her feel like she wasn't worth anything. His son would always protect me from him but, then he got shot and died. We were walking home from school and there was a drive by. We were used to them but, we were always in the house when they happened, we were only 2 houses down from the house and Josh thought we could make it inside. When we got to the door it was locked so he jumped on top of me in hopes I wouldn't get hurt. I didn't but he did. He got shot in the chest and the bulled went inside his lungs. James blamed me for. He beat and raped me every night after that. Later on he got my mother on crack and she left I hadn't seen her any more after that. I called my father and he told me it wasn't his problem. That's when Rihmeek came into my life and saved me.
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The song had nothing to do with the story I just like it. Also be on look for my new book. 😝😍❤️ Sorry it's
