Dear Jadine;

I really didn't plan on doing this yet, but I am extremely frustrated right now so finals be damned.

Disclaimer: I don't know Jadine and this is merely my own perspective. But I apologize if this sounds more angry than poetic.

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I hated you both

So much

It's funny because when I think back it's hard to remember why

But I saw you both as a threat

And it's embarrassing to admit it, but my feelings

were derived from this fanwar that blinded me

I hated you both

Without knowing anything about you

You were the other loveteam, the competition

By loveteam culture rules, it was my duty to dislike you both

So I did

though unlike others, I had more manners as to not express that online

I never sent hate messages

I never made degrading pages

But I still hated you both

Dear Jadine,

I was frustrated at the arguments between my fandom and yours

People kept claiming you were both talented

And amazing

I remember watching a video and you both sang well

So well that I told myself it had to be autotune

Because I didn't believe you both could sound so good naturally

Everyone kept mentioning your songs

So I checked them out

and I hated myself because I enjoyed them

I began listening to them daily

And as I said before, I bought them

Legally

For the first time in my life

My dislike began to lessen

and it became this curiosity to know more on you

Though me being my immature teen self

Still thought of it as disdain

When it was really a transition to me becoming a fan

Dear Jadine,

I gave you both the music card