His Dominion

TWELVE

I hope you love them.

Jaxon

Why is it always the ones who've done nothing as a child, have to grown up as the person they are today?

Like why am I running from gangs?

Why am I trying to keep my family alive?

For what?

What have I done to have my life like this?

Oh.

Oh right, I forgot.

I was born into that life.

Nothing I can do.

I sat next to the tombstone of my best friend.

He was my best friend in elementary through out middle school.

I told him everything what happen that day or the day before.

He was one that never judged me when I used to show up with a huge bruises on my face. Or would take breaks climbing the stairs because the pain of my bruises on my side would hurt so much.

But it was all a trick.

A game actually.

The game my father put up, and would watch from afar.

He was watching me play his game. How I would go to someone I cared for, and tell them everything.

To this day, it's my fault my best friend died.

How he died when walking back to his ma when I showed up to school with my back whipped.

I showed him. I showed him the marks of what my nightmares did, and that cost him his life.

Just because I couldn't keep my mouth shut and deal with it like before.

That was first time I showed him my cuts.

And that would be last time I would.

My father came home that day and yanked me out of the house and threw me to my uncle in the backseat while we drove to where he would walk home.

It was a drive by.

A drive by that I was in.

All because of me.

All because of me, he didn't get to go home and say hi to his ma or pa.

Not even say hi to his baby sister.

He didn't even get to graduate.

Never got to feel what love felt like.

Or be a the father.

I been here for hours. Just watching the grass move with the wind. No one dares to come near me.

I see from afar they look towards me but end up walking away.

I laid on my back. A few feet away, just imagining his body laying right next to me, while I talked. I talked while I watch the sky grow dark and starts started to beam out.