ώings 5

ᴘᴀʀᴛ 1

ᴊᴋ ᴘᴏv

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"All my life... I've thought about what it would be like... To live a life where... The only thing I ever do is smile. But... The only thing I can offer as of right now is a fake smile... Deep inside, it keeps trying to show, but I have to fight it. You may be asking, 'Fight what?' Well, baby... If you really want to know... I can tell you in another letter. As of right now... All I can say is I'm perfectly fine and I feel happy."

I write on a piece of paper, signing my name at the bottom with a heart next to it.

Who am I sending this to? No one. It's just my feelings... I write all of my feelings down on paper and stuff them in envelopes.

Why am I writing this specific letter? I feel like I'm in love with her. But happy endings are only something you hear about in fairy tales.

My Hyungs said no more girls because the previous girls have wrecked us. We've changed so many times and they just want a break. Namjoon's girl changed us all in a good way, although there was a lot of pain and hurting in it. They're currently separated, seeing on how some doctors found cancer in her dad's lungs and he had a stroke. On top of that, Joonie Hyung has to concentrate on the new album.

J-Hope's girl kinda affected him negatively, causing a chain reaction to flow through BTS, also Hobi never told her that he was an idol. They broke up a few days ago. Hobi has been so depressed.

Jin's girl made Namjoon cheat on his girl and also killed Jin, literally. Jimin lied to his girl and didn't tell her that we're angels. She went back to finish school, but I'm sure Jimin still contacts her.

Me? I do anything a good boyfriend would do; not tell anybody that we're dating. I'll tell you how we met and all events leading up to today, but... It's kinda lonely, having to meet her in private and keeping everything to myself, especially my first kiss with her.

I don't know what I'd do if my Hyungs ever found out about her. I'd probably break from the group. They'd kick me out. They'd hate me forever. I treat her in the best way possible and tell the others that I'm just in my dorm. I sneak out when they're asleep and run out of the building for her.

I don't even know if she cheats on me in the time that I'm not around, but I don't care. I love her. I don't care if she doesn't truly feel the same way back or uses me just for money. Fake love is better than thinking that no one will ever love me back. Anyways... Time for the explanation... Let's go back 2 weeks ago, when me and Y/N first met...

*ғʟᴀsʜʙᴀᴄᴋ*
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I flop on my bed after a long day of recording my singing. We're gonna have a comeback soon and Rapmon Hyung wrote us an album specially called "날개" or as you would translate it... "Wings." He wrote it based off of the things connected to us that gave us our bad qualities. We're gonna film our "Short Films" tomorrow.

'I need a coffee break...' I sigh and walk out of my room. Jimin asks me, "Hey, Kookie... Where you goin'?" "I'll be back... I need some time to chill." I reply. He nods and continues looking on his phone.

I press the elevator button and it dings. I then step in and press the lobby button. I sigh, watching the numbers go down floor by floor. It dings and I walk out quickly and push the front doors open.

I step into the car and say, "Take me to a coffee shop far away." "Okay. I know a good one." The driver replies. What coffee am I gonna get? A white chocolate mocha. I'll try that today. I smile randomly at my amazing choice.