He saved me from drowning Niall Horan

not eating and cuts again!

sorry I haven't wrote in a while had exams this week so been busy but please keep reading liking and commenting :)x Megan

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Jessica's pov;

I woke up to a crash and shouting, all of a sudden I got really scared it sound like my dad did. I curled up in a ball under my cove, shaking and crying. I heard my bedroom door open and flinched.

" jess are you alright babe " I hear niall whisper, I sniffle. I don't say anything.

" Jesse I know your awake " he says again and goes to place his hand on top of the cover I flinch again.

" oh babe it's okay, it's just the boys fighting over pancakes. no ones going to hurt you while I'm hear. " he whispers. I slowly come out of the cover and see niall sitting on the end of the bed.

" Promise " I whispered

" Pinkey " he say holding out his pinky I smile and take it.

We walk down stairs to be meat by 4 boys covered in flour and eggs.

" I think you have a little! " I giggled

"i think we know love " Louis said

me and niall burst out laughing. Niall runs into the kitchen and I follow, we look around the kitchen it was clean and there was a stack of pancakes on the side. Niall runs over to them and takes about 6 on plate, I go and sit next to him. 

" you can take some pancakes by the way"

I think of how much fat is in them pancakes, I don't need that fat but they look so nice! No jess don't take them.

" oh um I'm not hungry " I said

" is this about last night" he say

" umm no " I say looking at my shoes like they were so amazing

" your lieing I know, your not fat now eat." I take one pancake and eat it and walk up to my room as soon as I get there I spit it down the toilet and stick my fingers in my mouth so I'm sick. I take my razor (my best friend) and make more slits on my arm.

1 for being fat 2 for being useless 3 for being ugly 4 for being born 5 for coming here I lay helpless on the floor. I hear a knock on the bathroom door.

" jess can I come in"

"no" I said weakly that's not going to give anything away is it God sake! 

I hear the door unlock and I know it's niall but I can't be bother to move and I haven't got the energy to do so any way.

Niall's pov;

she take 1 pancake eats it and runs up stairs fuck sake why is she being like this it's not right. I run after herself and get stopped by Liam half way up the stairs.

" hey what's going on?" Liam asks

" jess won't eat she ate a pancake but I think she is just going to spit it back out! "

" oh ok I'll leave you to stop her" Liam said

I ran to her room she wasn't there I walked to her bathroom and knocked on the door

" jess can I come in"

" no " I could hear the weakness UN her voice she's been sick. I pick the lock on the door and opened it to see jess lying on the floor blood coming out her arms. she was lying by the toilet which means she's properly been sick. oh God this is all my fault! 

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it properly not very good but oh well. hope you like it, I'll write soon but been busy. please comment like and vote. thank you for reading :)x Megan