Any Last Words

Chilling thoughts

I still awake late in the night, the flashbacks of the old nightmares creeping through my mind. The old heartstopping, jaw-dropping memories replay constantly in my head. The dream, i mean nightmare. That one place; the party. Being taken against my own will, without anyone knowing what happened or where i had went. The thought scares me a little bit, but i manage to make it through...just barely but i succeed to do so. My body tingles with chills, the chills that run slowly up and down your spine, the cold sweats, and the shortage of breath the nightmares leave with you. I cant even seem to close my eyes without seeing the horrific image. The old wooden chair in the center of the empty, dark room. The chair that awaits for it's next victim. That victim most likely being me. I never understood the dream...what it meant. It didnt seem to make sense to me. How could this possibly happen to me when i wasnt allowed to do anything by myself let alone go somewhere without my parents being with me. Theyre too overly protective. I try to tell them every time that i am 15 and should be enjoing life as a teen but the response i get every single time is, "youll understand once youre a parent Shania.....its a big responsiblity, keeping your child safe" and hearing those words, well they piss me right off. They still treat me like im a little girl...well little do they know that im not her anymore. Im not the little girl who always wore her dull blond hair in pig tails and wore overalls with a pink shirt underneath....im now a grown women and they need to learn to accept it. Why cant i be like any normal kid? Going out when they want without their parents worrying. Or be able to have my parents trust me like the other teens parents do? Oh wait thats why....its cause my parents are pussies who are afraid of everything. Theyre afraid to be proven wrong. Theyre afraid to find out that i can protect myself on my own....afraid to see how much ive grown up...well little do they know, that they will be proven wrong.....one way or another and sooner than they expect.