Binded [DISCONTINUED]

Chap. 5 Messages

Eren's P.O.V

My eyes slowly open. I'm turned over on my side, slightly hanging off the bed. The covers are pulled over my face. My body felt as heavy as stone. I slowly sit up, the covers sliding off my body.

I grip my head, the room still spinning. I look out the window to see absolute grayness and fog. I stretch my arms upward, by back cracking in the process. I rub my eyes and part my messy bangs from my face. I throw my legs off my bed and stand up. My head hurts a bit. I slightly stumble to the stairs and brace myself up. I hear silence downstairs. I figured Armin went into town to trade some supplies. I bite my lip, dazed at what sleep could do to me. I lift my foot up to descend onto the last step, but suddenly freeze. Sticking out from my sleeve, was a red line

. I roll up my sleeve and clutch my head. In bold red letters on my arm, it read I'm so sorry. I roll my eyes, thinking Armin did this to stand as some lame apology. I freeze and realize we didn't own anything that could make a red mark. I descend down the last step and run to the bucket of water in the corner. I take a washcloth hanging from the table and dunk it into the water. I plop it onto my hand and vigorously wipe at it.

I look down at my hand to see it hasn't worn down a bit. I drop the washcloth and skid over to the counter and snatch at a bar of soap. My eyes suddenly catch something on my other arm. I drop the bar of soap and roll up my other sleeve. My heart drops.

That wasn't there before. Do you still hate me?. My body is shaking as desperately try to rub it off. I suddenly see something red at my ankle. I sit down and roll it up. I breath faster to see another message. It wasn't there before. I roll up my pant leg, seeing the words Eren Jaeger.

My hands are shaking as I grip my head. "I'm going insane" I breathe. I suddenly see another red line on my neck. I quickly stand up and grab the table for support. I throw my shirt to the ground and look to see another message. Do I really love you?. My eyes dart back and forth to see more messages popping up. I really am a monster. I should be punished. I'm so terrible. I fall to my knees and dig my head into my knees. My head is throbbing.

What was happening to me? Was this a dream? Was I imagining this? I raise my head from my knees and gasp. It was all gone. The messages were gone. I sigh in relief and grab my shirt, slipping it over my head.

I sigh and look down at my hands and freeze. Another message. My hand stings a bit, as if it were being engraved into my palm. My eyes water from the pain as I read the message. Do I really have feelings for the suicidal blockhead?

I blink, expecting the message to disappear. But it's still there. I stare at it and look up. I felt like someone was with me. A silhouette of a giant crystal clouds my mind. It disappears to reveal a weak girl.

"A-A-Annie?" I choke. I blink and she's gone. I look down at my hand, horrified the message was still there. "What's going on?" I choke. Suddenly my head throbs. The words I just said seemed to burn in my eyes. I shut my eyes, to still see the words as bright as ever.

In a flash, the words disappear, and I sigh in relief. I look back at my hand, disappointed it was still there. I fall to my knees again, then onto my back. The sound of rain hits against the metal roof. My eyes grow a bit heavier. I clutch my hand and relax it onto my chest and sigh.

Suddenly I find myself saying something unexpected. "I miss you Annie". Suddenly the words burn in my head again for two seconds before disappearing. I rub at my eyes and sit up again. "Eren?". I look up to see Armin at the front door, staring at me with confusion. I quickly stand up and hide my hand behind my back. "Eren....what are you doing?". I look away and say nothing. "This is your faulty you know" I mutter.

Armin looks at me confused. "Really Eren.....I did nothing". I feel myself grower angrier. I grab his shirt collar and pull him close. "You dragged me to this damn place Armin.....I can take care of myself!". Armin looks at me shocked. My eyes widen and I let go. I realized I used the hand with the message to grab his shirt collar. "Eren...what was that?". I grip my hand. "Nothing" I snap. I grip my fists and storm up the stairs.

I looked like an insane nut bag. I was going crazy. I breath in and collapse onto my bed again. I feel a heavy feeling in my heart. I missed the SC. I missed the battle. I missed Annie. Why couldn't everything go back to normal?