July 26th,
Dear Ryan,
I miss you first of all. I miss you like all hell. I wish I listened to you about your chest. Your ashes are on your bedside table. I haven't touched any of your things except your bow ties. Everything is where you left it. I can't handle the thought about moving them. I miss you. Fuck I already said that. Well it's true. I miss you and I want you back here with me. I've only gone outside 3 times and one of them was for your funeral. I post mate everything now. Dallon wants to control me. Our maid of honor stopped by, brought flowers. Those are on your bedside too. Dallon has been so inconsiderate.. I hope you're happy. I listen to your songs everyday.. they make me feel like you're in the room with me. I miss you. I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. I miss your jokes. I miss your touch. I miss everything about you. I want you here again. I love you to you and back.
-Brendon <3 :)
-B.
