Don't give up on me(Jinxx Ferguson fanfic)

Chapter Sixteen: I'm Just a Stupid Motherfucker Can't Figure it Out

~Scarlet~
It's been about two months since I've seen Jinxx and I'm back on tour again. I haven't really talked to the BVB boys including my brother, Andy. "Hey Ma we get on in twenty minutes." The drummer in my band says.
"Alright, can I use the back room real quick?" He nods. I go to the back with my phone in my hand.
I put the phone to my ear and hear it ring for a few seconds.
"Scar?!" He shouts in my ear.
"Hey C." I smile.
"Oh my gosh! The guys are with me right now!"
"Put me on speaker."
"You already are." Jake says. "FaceTime man." I FaceTime them and all of them greet me with a heart warming smile, including Jinxx.
"Hey guys, long time no see." I smile.
"Hey mom!" Ashely squeals.
"Hey sis." Andy waves.
"Hi guys!" I giggle
"Are you high again?" Jinxx asks. I shake my head.
"Not this time."
  "Oh ok good." He smiles.
  "Well we'll leave you guys alone." Andy says, the others leave Jinxx and I.
  "C-can we just do a regular call...?" I ask nervously.
  "Sure." I call him and put the phone to my ear.
  "So how have you been now?"
  "Good...I guess." I try to hold back a few tears but one escapes.  
  "Oh." It grows silent for a bit. "Scar..."
"Mhm?" I snap out of my thoughts.
"I'm sorry...for hurting you." I sigh.
"Jinxx Ferguson. If I hated you, then I wouldn't be talking to you right now. You hurt me a lot and we always get back together somehow." I smile a bit. "No matter what, I'm always gonna get back with you." We both giggle like little school girls.
  "I don't think I deserve you Scar." I frown.
  "What do you mean Jinxx?" He hangs up. I call Ashley quickly.
  "Hey Scar what's up?"
  "Ash where is Jinxx?" I ask as calm as possible.
  "In the bathroom, why?"
  "Are you guys at the house?"
  "Yeah."
  "I'll be there." I hang up and run to the bus driver. "I need you to make a stop about thirty minutes away." He nods. "I'll give you the address just please hurry."
  -Skip-
  I unlock the BVB house door with the spare key they gave me and ran in. I went upstairs to the bathroom without a small hi.
  I jiggled the door knob to the bathroom. "Jinxx!" I shout. Andy comes up.
  "What's going on?" He asks.
  "Jinxx baby it's me." I hear sobbing inside
  "Go back on tour Scar...you deserve someone else." I motion Andy to go away and he does so.
  "Jinxx baby open the door."
  "N-no..." he cries harder.
  "Listen to me babe," it grew quiet "I love you and I won't ever deny it. My heart and body belongs to you, and only you. No matter what you did my heart, my soul, and my body will always crave you." The crying minimizes. "If you open this door, we can fix this." I slide my back against it. "We can go on with our lives as if nothing happened, or you can stay in that bathroom and I'll be sitting here missing my own tour."
  "Just go Scar."
  "Fine then...I see how it is." I fake the anger in my voice. I hear more sobbing.
  "It's all my fault!" I hear glass shatter. My eyes widen.
  "Jinxx!!!" I bang against the door. "Open the door please!!!" Tears threaten to spill out of my eyes. "Let me in now!!" I scream. CC tosses me the bathroom keys and I unlock it quickly. I drop the keys as I see blood on the floor and a shattered mirror.
  I open the shower curtains slowly and see Jinxx crying in the corner with blood on his hands and arms. "No no no Jinxx." I grab his hands and he winces in pain. My grasp on him lightens and I gasp as I see the red deep and puffy marks on his arms. "What did you do?!" I scream while crying. "If I cared then why would you do this?! I love you Jinxx and I always will! Can't you see?!" He flinches. "Don't do this to yourself Jinxx it's not good!! You saw how it affected me!!" I yank open the cabinet under the sink and grab the first aid kit. I help him up and sit him on the closed toilet seat.
  I put running alcohol on his cuts and he hisses at the pain. I don't say a word as I wrap his bandages. "Scarlet." He cups my cheek. "Why are you still here?" I shake my head. I rest my back against the wall while I sit on the floor. "Can I?" I nod. He sits beside me. I wrap my arms around him and bring him close to me. He rests his head on my chest and falls asleep fast.
  I start to cry while caressing his cheek. "I love you Jinxx." I cry while pecking his head softly.
  "Scarlet." Andy comes in and sees all the glass and blood.
  "Andy..." I look at him, my eyes all puffy and circled with black from runny mascara and eyeliner. "Jinxx cut himself." I bit my lip. "It's all my fault." He shakes his head.
  Ashely scoops Jinxx up and carries him to his bed.
"Let's go for a drive." Andy takes me hand, I try to pull away but he's too strong so I give up. "I'm sorry for everything." He holds on to me tightly, I lean up against the car door patting his back.
  "It's okay." I hear sobbing coming from my chest. "Andy." I lift up his chin. "It's okay, I'm here now." I peck the top of his head. "Don't cry big brother."
  "But I started this mess, I hurt you." I shake my head and wipe away his tears.
  "But you ended it, and that's all that matters." I hold on to him while rubbing his back. "Let's go out, Jinxx isn't going anywhere." He nods. "I'll drive." I take the keys from his hands and get in the drivers side while he gets in the passenger side.
  "Where are we going?" He asks while sniffling.
  "My favorite place as a kid."

  I know it's not a good chapter but just please wait.