I decide {Saeyoung x reader x Saeran}

Chapter 2 / 11pm

I woke up at 9:33am on my room's floor. Probably I just fell asleep with my phone after dramatic breakup with my ex.
I felt bad and was thinking about going for a little morning run with my lovely dog, Betty.
Soon made my way to the bathroom, washed my face thoroughly, and brushed my teeth and moisturized my face after washing and dried it with a towel.
Then I went downstairs to make some breakfast and I took a banana yogurt and made myself a toast and coffee.
I was scrolling my old photos from my phone, and accidentally stumbled on photographs with my ex.
Gosh... This makes me feel so bad.
I angrily threw my phone at the wall and started crying very loudly.

*Violent steps from the stairs*

"Sierra, what the heck?!"

I didn't even want to look at my mom. I knew she was angry, and I knew she was looking at my broken phone.

"What is wrong with you, young lady?!"

I didn't want anyone to talk to me, especially my mom. Especially this way.

"Do you think we have money on a new phone? Do you think that you can have anything at any time?!"

I was really angry at this point. I can't handle my anger anymore.

"And now you're just sitting there and not saying a single word? Well, good job." *ironically applauding*

This went way too far now.

"LISTEN TO ME NOW, DUMB BITCH! I DON'T KNOW WHATEVER HAPPENED TO YOU, BUT I DON'T KNOW YOU ANYMORE. DO YOU EVERYONE THINK THAT I'M JUST A FUCKING TOY? YOU ALL CAN JUST SHUT UP AND FUCK OFF. I DON'T WANT ANYONE IN MY LIFE ANYMORE. YOU AND DAD RUINED MY LIFE, BECAUSE YOU TWO ARE FUCKING EGOISTIC COCKSUCKERS. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? I DO NOT KNOW, IF THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG, IT'S THAT I WAS BORN. I DIDN'T ASK FOR IT, SORRY! "

I ran away from the kitchen, and I saw my mothers face. Her mouth was a bit open, but overall, she didn't have any emotions on her face.

I put on my sneakers quickly, I didn't want to even look up for Betty, because the atmosphere in this house was just freaking me out, I don't want to stay here, but I neither want to leave to Korea.

• • •

At first, I was running as fast as I could and crying loudly, trying to figure out what will my life in Korea look like. Oh well, I know. Fucking worthless, sad and boring. To be honest, I even started to think about suicide.

Oh god, I never thought about it, I've always been really happy and didn't ever stress anything so much. I don't want to die, not now. I'm not ready.

After a two-three hours of walking around my city, I finally decided to make my way to our house and the clock was somewhere around 11pm. My mother is probably freaking out right now, it is very unusual for me to come home this late.

• • •
11:34, I tried to open our house's door as quiet as I can, took my shoes off and silently undressed my jacket.

"Good evening, Sierra. Do you know what time is it?"

Oh shit, I thought to myself. Please. No. I don't want to have any kind of conversation with my mom right now. Well, I already know that it's pretty impossible to avoid.
I quietly tried to sneak up to my room, but mom stopped me with her next sentence:

"Where have you been? Were you with Charlie?"

I was trying really hard to ignore her. I took one more step on stairs.

"Wait... are you... pregnant?"

What the actual fuck, mom.
AM I PREGNANT?
OH YEAH, TOTALLY, THAT IS IT, YOU GOT ME.
I'm suffering a fucking divorce between my parents and I will soon move to some random bitch ass country, with no friends and my ex-boyfriend hates me for no fucking reason.

"Yes mom, I am pregnant"

• • •

After a couple of hours sitting on my bed in my room, I calmed down, and tried to think about good sides.
Maybe I will fall in love with this city? What if I will find my dream job? What if I will become popular dancer or singer?
Well, let's give it a try, but for now, I need to get my luggage downstairs and send my friends a goodbye text messages.

I carried my cases downstairs and packed up my rucksack. Should I make myself a snack for tomorrow? It was total darkness here, downstairs and the only light here, was the light coming from refrigerator that I opened to see if we had some food, or something that I would be able to make myself a snack for tomorrow. I couldn't think clear. My thought were racing all over my mind, feels like my head is going to explode. Sleeping pills could be a good idea, but I'm pretty scared, because I've never before took any pills. Except some kind of vitamins of course.

''Oh, I forgot to take my daily D vitamins''

'' Sierra?'' , I heard my mother's angry voice from her working room upstairs.

''Yes mom, I'm just took my luggage downstairs, I'm already going back to my room''

''I really hope so, we're heading out very early, and it's already 2 pm'' , my mother added.

I always wish my parents good night, so I took stairs and went to her working room. It was very messy and filled with a lot of cartoon boxes different sizes. My mom was sitting in the corner by the table, sorting out a bunch of different papers with her annoying square-shaped glasses on that made her eyes four times bigger.

''Good night, mom''

She took her glasses off, rubbed her eyes and looked at me.

I'm not sure what she was going to say. She doesn't look angry, but neither happy or that she is going to say something nice.

''I'm sorry about what happened today. You know, this divorce is hard for me too. All this undone work and your dad...''

I didn't have any words, so I was just quietly standing and hoping that she will say something. I hate this awkward silence.

''Well... You probably have to go to bed now''

I'm glad she finally broke this silence. Thank you.

''Uh, yeah, I should get going now, good night'' I said to my mom and headed out of working room.

END OF THE SECOND CHAPTER