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Ruka Takeshima's Diary No.2: Nothing Special

   So, to comfirm, my previous relationship did infact end, exactly a month ago today. What have I done since then? Not a lot really. My phone got smashed, I got a new one. My computer has a virus, I'm trying to sort it out and ontop of that I've had the least amount of motivation in my life. Hurrah!

   Today my boyish bestfriend almost forced me into introducing myself to a girl in the canteen at college today. I love him really but there are times when I just wish things could be how they used to be. He seems to be getting less and less friendly with me, spends most of college time being more friendly with the others on our course but when we're alone he opens up more. I feel like either he might leave me before too long or that I keep screwing up. I just don't know.

   She said I'd been treating her worse and not putting enought effort in and that we were going to stay friends but that she was de-activating all her social media accounts until she gets a job and passes her driving test. She recently reactivated her facebook account though... I just don't know what to do.

  If I'm going to be completely honest part of me wants to wait for her while the other half doesn't. I feel weird. Anyway I guess that's enought writing for today, gunna go back to lying around doing fuck all.

   If I die now atleast I dont have to bother with the rest of my life.