That's not the answer! (Morty x depressed!reader)

chapter 5

TRIGGER WARNING MENTION OF RAPE AND SUICADAL ATTEMPTS

Dinner's finished and I began to head home. I dread home. No one's there and I'm alone. All alone with my thoughts and memories. I began to get ready for sleep. Showering, changing, brush my hair and my teeth. I finally lied down and I just let myself try to sleep.
It's all your fault you fat pig! Their failed marriage was all your fault. You spilled the truth, you killed him!
"That's not true... you don't know that." I whisper to myself, to Her.
Yes you did. You've never changed have you? Naïve little girl.
"Shut up, you don't know a thing"
I know lots about us. How we like to pretend to be brave and strong. All just for Rick and
"Morty..."  we finished together.
"Not everything's my fault..."
Is it? Am I the one who wear's that smile? Am the one who did the deed?
"No but you're the one who struck the match and now that fire won't go out.
You hurt people and yourself
"Shut up! You don't know shit! You all in my.. head..."
Fine let's see how you are in the morning
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MORTY POV
Rick and I snuck up to (Y/N)'s room.
"You ready Morty?" Rick asked.
I just nodded my head. Course I'm not. When am I ever?
Rick handed me one ear piece and put one in (Y/N)'s ear. Then putting one into his we flipped the switch.

~¤☆dream☆¤~
(Y/N) pov
I was chained to a wall by Her. Clothed in nothing more than a long (f/c) shirt and some panties. Fighting and struggling against the restaints. I sat watching my much younger self being....
Raped
I could only watch the deed happen. I kept struggling. I was in pain. I can feel the pain in me. I kept struggling. I'm willing to die for stop this. I watched for one second before I knew what moment it was for me to look away
"Stop it! Leave her alone! Leave me alone! Please! I'm begging you stop it!" I begged soon enough hanging my head in shame.
Sit and stare (Y/N). It's all your fault for being such a daddy's girl.
"Shut up I hate you!" I screamed to the demon in my head.
I kept struggling and begging. I kept this up until I saw it in the floor. The sliver of a razor sitting in reach of me.
Go ahead you know what to do. Go on once more can't hurt now can it?
I stared at it.
Go on you know for a fact this will end it all
I picked it. Putting to my bare wrists.
"W-w-wait!" I hear Morty say, stopping me in my action.
I looked up I see Rick too. I dropped the razor. Rick had pushed Him off of myself. That I felt pain lighted but I could still feel it. Morty came to me with a gadget in his hands. He broke the chains on me. I got up and went over to myself.
"Please don't tell mommy! Mommy will be mad at me! Mommy's going to hate me!"
I went hug me wanting nothing more than to comfort her.
"Mommy's always hated us. If she loved us she would have NEVER remarried. Especially not to Him." She said coming out the shadow. Her hair was (length) and a silky (h/c). Her eyes were a vicious  (e/c) and much brighter than mine. She was also skinnier like a super model skinny.
"Yep everything your not."
I squeezed my eyes and dropped to the floor.
"Mommy doesn't love us anymore!"
"That's not true, mommy will always love us."
The younger me was naked. It was always a fact I could see from my chained up spot.
Rick came up,eyes looking away, tossing my younger self his lab coat.
"C-Cover yo*burp* yourself up."he said seemingly uncomfortable.
She took it, pulling it on.
Morty began to walk up. Younger me sat back into position she was, head in my neck and arms around my neck. Morty came and hugged us. After all this time I was finally able to cry.
"Mommy won't hate us?"
"We don't need mommy"
Mommy doesn't love us
Morty pov

Then suddenly, the skinnier (Y/N) came out of nowhere. A knife in her hands about to stab the younger (Y/N). I took action knocking her out.
"Let's go another dream deep, Morty."
I nodded.
Suddenly there she was in a wedding dress. Her hair had flowers in it. Dancing around dreaming.
"Dance with me?" (Y/N) asked Rick.
I didn't notice the clothes change. I looked over to Rick. He was in an uncomfortable looking suite. Rick complied.
"How are you?"
"Don't mind me but are you ok?"
She nodded.
"You're too good a kid have to hide." Rick said kindly.
The sky had some clouds appear.
"Maybe but it's safer this way."
"Do you trust easily?"
More clouds gathered
"Yes but that doesn't mean I'm not scared..."
"Are you scared of me?
The clouds got dark.
"N-No..." (Y/N) stuttered. The clouds kept getting darker and the leaves on trees I didn't notice before began to rot and fall.
"Do you love him?"
Rain began to fall lightly.
"Yes..."
She began to cry and the temperature began to drop.
"And what do you think of yourself?"
It began to thunder and lighting flashed.
"A slut, a horrible being of sex."
The rain came pouring.
She fell to the ground.
I went over and hugged her.
"D-Dance with me?"
I nodded.
"You care right?" (Y/N) asked like a scared child.
"Of course I care." The rain lightened and the sounds stop.
"I'm not a horrible person am I?"
"You too beautiful for this world."
The storm stopped. The clouds were still dark.
"Why do you care?"
"Why shouldn't I? You're amazing, beautiful, and smart."
The trees had their leaves and the clouds were beginning to leave.
"Why are always here with me?"
"You deserve it. Besides I need you..."
Her eyes began to sparkle. The clouds dissappeared and the trees had flowers bloom.
"Thank you. I love you. I wish I wasn't scared to tell you."
I felt my face flush red. I realized that I did love her but if I say something outside of here she'll know.
"I love you too."
~¤☆dream☆¤~

Sorry this is a long one and the thoughts are my own so....