The warrior.

pancakes and brownies

~ recap ~

" Mason! why did you follow me?!" i whisper yell at him. I am pis*ed don't get me wrong but I have to respect him.

He looks down at his shoes, I move his head with my fingers. Then I regret what I've done because all I can see is hurt and regret in his eyes.

"Sorry Mr. Blackwell, I didn't mean to get you upset, I just don't have a good past with people following me." I say quietly. I have found my boots more interesting at this point.

"I'm sorry." I say and run to my car. I'm speeding home and I don't care. New record : Alex 0 , Guilt/anxiety/depression: 3.

I run inside forgetting about the doors, but sit inside my bathroom, with my head hands and knees in my chest. While playing music up all the way. I don't even change my clothes.

I decide to sit with the door locked. Like that will do me any good.

It turns out that Mr. Blackwell thought I did some things... i mean it makes sense the door was locked but my phone was out in my bedroom on my bed.

I only had my iPod in there with me. I say with with only my iPod because I didn't have to worry about anything. I could stare at the moon.

It's later in the morning now. But I was too zoned out to notice that the door was getting banged on. Then poof. I looked up and the door was at my feet.

with a teary eyed Mr Blackwell. I fuc*ed up once again.

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"sorry mason." I say quietly. i feel awful at this point. how messed up am I to hurt a teacher like this.

wait why does he care, he is only my math teacher anyway. I observe his face, his hair is tousled like his hands have been through it too many times to count. His eyes are red and irritated.

I notice he has sat beside me on the floor. I hand over my iPod. but made sure it was turned down. I made sure fall out boy was on, I think G.I.N.A.S.F.S was playing. I got up and left mason in the bathroom.

i pre-heated the oven for brownies. then started to get the stuff for pancakes. I can make pancakes quickly.

After I made 10 pancakes I mixed up the brownies and threw them in the oven. I put nutella on the pancakes and put them on a large plate while waiting for brownies. after the brownies cooled I put some on a plate and got a glass of milk.

I took the plates of food with the milk into my room then with mason. I never noticed how young he must be. he must be around 22. I tip- toed in and sat them beside him, and gave him a hug.

i mumbled "sorry." in his ear multiple times. Then when I realized he was sniffling, I couldn't do it. I had to get out. I mumbled "sorry." one last time and ran to my back door and into the woods behind my house.

there is a little river back there and I always come here when I need peace. its calming even though the rumored wolves that are vicious. but I don't mind. I drift off into my thoughts and remember the black wolf with bright green eyes. wait, that's what Mr.Blackwells keychain looked like. whatever.

I start to head back to my house but I got lost. After a bit of walking I found the river, it seemed different. I went to jump over and fell into a animal. wait it's the wolf, the wolf that was in my dreams.

"Sorry wolf." I mumble and stroke its fur. After a while of sitting with the wolf I say quietly " Sorry wolfie I have to go back to Mason." The wolf looks at me with those bright eyes and pads away.