The one I couldn't have...

The Letter.

To: The one I couldn't have.

Hello, it's me.
This is just a medium to let you know of how I feel towards you. Do you remember how we first met? On seeing you, I more or less saw the opposite side of me. I was a quiet and naive person while you were the outgoing, not so loud and seemingly experienced person.

In my mind I felt we couldn't be friends cause I thought the likes of you would never see me, but somehow you did. Thus began a great friendship between us. A bond built between us. A bond I have come to cherish.

Over time, I got closer to you as you did me. Then I thought why not move things to the next level with you. Of course my quiet side kicked in and made me doubt and fear that you would reject me. Eventually after much motivation and positive thinking, I popped the question.

But just like I feared, you turned me down. Normally I would have picked myself up, dusted myself and moved on but somehow I couldn't. You had become a part of me.

Anyway, if I couldn't date you then I felt I could be a close friend whom you could rely on. Seems like that worked for you. Now everyday I have to live with the fact that no matter how close I get to you I would never be able to have you.

Like I said at the beginning, I am only using this to tell you how I feel. I met someone new, hoping for the best with us, though not ready to go all in cause I fear she may not accept me. But still am optimistic.

I still think about you. You made some changes in my life that I know I couldn't have made easily on my own. I guess all am trying to say is, I LOVE YOU. And I would try my best to be there for you, even if we can't be together.

From: Anon.