I Love You

Missing him

Analise P.O.V.

Its been 4 months since Daniel left. To be honest its been hell since he left.

I thought what we had once was lost

I think us losing the baby took a lot from us.

I thought me and Daniel would never be the same but I now know I have been wrong.

I love Daniel with all my heart and I cant live with out him he was this constant thing in my life since I was baby

  Now being away from him has made me depressed

I need him in my life and I am going to get him back.

I pack a bag and load everything into my car ready to drive back to our home town to talk to Daniel.

I hope he takes me back i miss him so badly and I know we can get over us losing our baby we will never forget but we can move past this I know we can.

It took me a while to get over it but it was my baby how else was I suppose to move on.

Its like this little human was inside me for 8 months I have grown attached to it, I was so excited to have my baby it was going to be a boy we were going to name him Daniel after his dad we even had the whole nursery set and everything and we were ready I didnt have alot to go til the baby arrived. Baby Daniel was suppose to come very soon.

I remember that night just like it was yesterday. We had just gotten back from our little date and we were driving home and we were singing along to this song we both liked very much and I remembered it was raining and there was this sharp turn and as we were turning we slipped because the road was very slippery and another car had just slipped to causing it to ram right into us. Everything happened so fast. Next thing you know I woke up in a hopsital room with the news of losing my baby. We were so devasted. The person in the other car happened to be this old man he died in the accident also. I remember Daniel ended up having a concussion and a broken hand and I had a broken leg bruises and I lost our baby.

After THAT happened to me and Daniel we became depressed we fought alot .

It was like everything we did irritated eachother and one night we had gotten into a really big fight and I said some things I regret and he said somethings and he had yelled saying

"fine I'll just pack my stuff and go if thats what is going to make you happy"

and I remember me saying

"good you do that because it will in fact make me very happy"

I didnt mean it but at the time I was just so depressed and angry. I was angry at the world because I had lost my baby. Why did it have to be me? I did nothing wrong? I just remember I was just so angry.

When he left I was even angrier at the world.

But one day I was trying to work on our our garden because thats what I used to do alot it gave me time to think and I would put on some music and I would just get lost into working on the garden so I thought I should. But it wasnt right everything was off my rake... it broke ... then I accidently spilt my ice tea on my radie and it broke. It just seemed like everything was going wrong in my life at the moment

so I became really angry it was like everything I was bottling in just exploded and I started shouting and throwing things around and breaking things.

I remember our neighbor Mrs. Palvin
Came out of her house and walked straight up to me grabbed the water hose and started spraying me and then when I was completly soaked and by then I had already stopped destroying things she grabbed my shoulders and shook me.

She yelled and said "looky here missy I have stood here and watch what has happened to you and im sorry deary I really am I could never imagine what you are going through its terrible just terrible but you have drove that young man away and honey its been 4 months you need to stop being so angry and go get your man back its time to move on you will never forget but you can move on and honey its time you do so go back inside take a deep breath say you can do this and go get your man and be happy again I dont want to see you wasting your life anymore" and with that she walked straight back into her house and slammed her door. After she said all that I realized she was right I did need to get my life together and I was going crazy without Daniel I needed him. So I went back inside cleaned the whole house back to the way it was I finally had the courage to go into the babys room and I took everything down and put them away in the garage. The next day I went grocery shopping and filled the house back up and then I realized i did this all and theres only one thing missing and its Daniel so I packed a bag and decided to go get him. Because every part of me ached for him I was miserable and lonely without him and I was hoping they could get what we used to have when we first fell in love.

As she saw the sign saying she was entering her old home town she drove to his parents house and parked a street away and just sat in the car.

She didnt know what she would say. She hasnt seen him in almost 5 months.

What if he moved on she thought.

No he couldnt have it was too soon.

After what seemed like forever she started up the car and drove up to Daniels parents house and got out and knocked on the door

Daniels father Harold opened answered the door and when he saw her he was beyond surprised "Analise what are you doing here?" he asked her and she was just about to reply when Daniels mother Hellen came to the door

"Analise? Oh my goodness child its good to see you" she said and pulled her into a hug and Analise hugged her back

"what are you doing here?" she asked

Analise coughed to clear her throat

"um im here to see Daniel" she asked and right when she asked his parents looked at her with sorry eyes and that made her scared as hell

"Oh honey im so sorry" Hellen said oh no that cant be good

"What?what is it?" she asked scared to know why they are looking at her like that

"Uh Analise i really dont know how to tell you this would you like to come in and sit down" Harold asked her and she shook her head

"No tell me right now whats going on" she asked and his mom looked like she was about ready to cry

"Honey Daniel he- " she cut them off

"Hes not dead is he?" she asked scared to find out the answer

"Oh honey no" Hellen said

She let out a big breath she didnt know she was holding relieved to hear he wasnt dead

"Then what is it?" she asked and looked at them

"He uh he is um he is" the mother started rambling looking at Harold for help and he finished for her and boy did she wish he never told her anything

" Daniel doesnt stay with us anymore he now has a new house with this other girl and they just got engaged and he owns a bar" his father told her

she couldnt hear anything else he was saying her eyes started to blur and and she ran inside her car and cried

some of the memories of them came rushing back to her and she couldnt hold it in.

She started to bang her steering wheel angry. She has lost everything. How can he have moved on? They have been seperated for what 4 months and he seemed to have gotten engaged and moved into a house with this girl? They werent even divorced yet? When was he going to tell her? She was interrupted by his mom knocking on her window but she didnt answer she had nothing to say them.She felt pathetic. So she started the car and drove off.